I hate the feelings deep down inside of me, as they hurt so much and no one can see them as they tend to be hidden from one and all as I hate pity, I am a very strong person most of the time but for some reason right now I don't know what to do with myself....I see so many of my closest friends hurting so much and I can't help but hurt myself as ( Read more... )

I hate being me. That is all for now.

Not much to update on....really havent done much the last couple of days...so i decided to put this in my journal as well ( Read more... )

So yeah jam was so great, even though it was coinciding with the pancake breakfast.....so friday we got there way too early so most of the guys ran off and got gatorade and what not....so off to broomball, it was going great to start, a 1-0 victory, I get to be goalie of course as I fill like the whole net, second game comes and we get destroyed, ( Read more... )

Well so now that that is out of the way, not much to say. Not a ton has happened recently, just been hanging out all over the place and commencing on my partying once again....oh well don't really care. In a couple of hours I'll be at jam, so can't wait to get there and be away from home as I'm going crazy there, which is why I am never there ( Read more... )

Today marks the ten year anniversary of Kurt Cobain comitting suicide. Wow I didn't know it had been that long, it sure doesn't seem like it but whatever. Nirvana is still awesome to this day. Not much to update on, other than I'm loving the great weather and using it to my advantage before jam to be ready for basketball. Wait the circus was ( Read more... )

I love this song and have only heard it once. Its quite the moving song ( Read more... )

So what a week I went through, pretty well got a girl I cared for alot to hate me, but not much I can do on that now, so that through my trip to Wi out the window on Monday......didnt really do much of anything until Thursday which was the grand lodge banquet...what a waste of my time and gas, drive an hour away to have my name misspelled on my ( Read more... )

As people tend to jump to things when they read certain things I have a few things to clear up, Candice blowing me was when we were playing with the dirty dice and she blew at my face, nothing bad, alright secondly, her and me sleeping together as us actually sleeping in the chair, not sex or anything like that. Well now that I lost two friends I ( Read more... )

So I figured it was time to write for the last time as I may be dead after this one....here goes....so st patricks day, what a night, so i decided to go to the bar but noone could go with me so I figured I'd just go for a couple quick and go home, didnt happen that way, as I ran into Crysta's mom and she invited me over to where she was at to meet ( Read more... )