summer is over, and I'm sad. End. I don't want to go to grand valley but I cant stay home any longer. Just when everything was starting to be ok.

From what I hear, every girl at the spradlins last night besides chiyo, laina and chelsea are complete bitches. Who gives a fuck if I went home with someone else from Julian's house. It's not like Julian cares. He doesn't like me like that and vice versa. So go call me a slut. But guess what, we didn't hook up. I admit we kissed for like 30 ( Read more... )

I'm so dashboard confessional right now. Oy vey... So haha tonight was ridiculous (as most cronicles of a lush are). I got drunk. I got pissed. I got emo... what's new? I drunk dialed. Oh how funny. I talked to chris. He apologized for being such a fuck up. But, here's where the good part comes in. He promised that he'd be to lainas ( Read more... )

Ok... so I said I was pissed right? I found out some more shit today. And I'm not pissed anymore. I mean the shit I found out should make me more pissed. But it doesn't. It just hurts. A lot. It's weird too, cuz I went out with wade for like 4 months, and dated for like a year... but I was never hurt this bad by him. And I guess it's ( Read more... )

what the fuck. I thought I was too good for this shit. But I was wrong ( as usual) and maliciously my car was broken into (according to the police). I didn't think it was wade but the cops gave me a feeling it was. Today has just been aweful... yet I'm still in a somewhat good mood... I mean better than normal. I hate chris. I hate boys. I ( Read more... )

My car got broken into last night and all of my cd's were stolen. I had a lot of cd's. Any of you that know me for real (ya know, outside of the internet) should make me mix cd's and burn me sweet cds... that'd be so awesome. I'm trying to look at this with a good attitude. My music collection needed some sprucing up... shit who am I kidding. ( Read more... )

thank grandma for the eyes tomorrow... because they are helping, a lot. I feel amazing... I don't know if I've ever felt so amazing before. And it's all going to end soon. But I've got another week. And I need to remember to thank grandma for the sweet eyes, because they are what help me feel complete.

I finally got everything back from wade. It hurt a lot more than I thought it would. But I'm glad I can close the book and never look back on such a dark part of my life. It will always hurt to think about him, but stragely not as much as it should. I guess I never really did care about him. I guess those of you i'm close to know that already ( Read more... )

something as small as his hand on mine can make me tingle all over my body. why haven't i gotten to feel like this before?

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