Rocky is dying ( Read more... )

*hanging with my pooch, and petfests! (now just a little more gentle)
  it's hard to see him in his older days. my parents have been great with helping him go through things on a day-to-day basis. johnny and I try to go visit on a regular basis, mostly weekends now. it's been really crappy, but somehow ok at the same time. and I'm in denial. he's ( Read more... )

saw this. tried this.


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what did you ever do ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot.

who never gets it right.

Some of the most devastating things of my life have happened amongst the happiest times. probably the happiest I've ever been.

dear this new year,
please do not do that again.

I'll still want to leave you a voicemail this year, too. but can't.

<3

..don't be afraid.

the only voice I want to hear is yours.

you are smaller, getting smaller, but I still see. you.

I'm losing what I can remember. there are only tiny hints and I want them to stay so bad.

so this guy at the bar, who's with people already talking to the group of people i'm with, pretty much tells his friend to ask my name and get me involved with whatever conversation. friend gets me over there, offers me a shot, I decline, he shows me his 'im happily married' ring, i still decline and explain, I get a free drink token (which i need ( Read more... )

goddamnit, human civilization.

why can't you realize that what you're doing is truly ridiculous, disturbing, unbelievable, unneccessary, and cruel?

and fucked up.

i'm really tired of this and I honestly don't know what to do anymore. because what I'm doing isn't enough. especially when assholes don't pitch in to help out.

so... while continuing an on-going joke using weakerthans lyrics with a friend, in the mist of randomly writing it to him I realized this lyric is pretty much the story of my life right now. This week I've had an absurd amount of mishaps, miscommunications and misunderstandings with people (and frankly, ive just been zoning out), it's incredible. I ( Read more... )