I'm not very good at letting people in. I'm scared of the way you've begun to control my moods

I wrote this last Friday..on my super secret blog..but I only showed it to him a couple of minutes ago (COZ I'M SHY NOW haha!) and he got so freaking kilig that I turned freaking pink in the cheek :">

I know I'm still not up for commitment, but dang, the minute I am.. :)

Last night was the star on my right cheek
-smokey eyes and coffee lips,
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I don't think you really like me as much as you think you do..I mean, there's still so much you don't know about me yet..there are a lot of things you still have to find out..

Things like? If this is about (your past)..I know. I know-know. I knew before pa..some guy told me, I forgot who.

You know? But..you still..?

Yeah. That's how much I like you.

..is it any wonder that I'm always good hits? :)

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piuoGb-Nhfw&feature=related :)

 I don't understand why I still need you in my life and why we can never be on the same page..ever. I'm still bothered by what I saw..or maybe "bothered" isn't the term..more like, I'm wondering what it all meant -what it all means; and if I've done or said or become, anything to contribute to the lack of follow-through.. I took you for granted, ( Read more... )

I should start doing that thing where you begin every day by writing down stuff I'm thankful for.

I think that'd help, a lot.

Hi Mars and Ida; your LJ comment conversations got me started thinking about that -points up- haha.

Yeah, I'm nosey. I love to read statuses and LJ comments and Facebook walls.

Loser much.

- yesterday's pitching practice
- the ( Read more... )

And still,

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Thank God for emo buddies (I love you two and I missed you both so so much), good cries..and secret blogs.

Though, sometimes..I really really wish they knew.

It's funny how it's always the people who say they care about you the most..who are just never there; who never know; and never really care (to find out in the first place)

EW EMO! Feeling Hamlet ( Read more... )