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So things have been ok for the most part. Got to thinking about something here recently. As you know (or don't), I don't normally go looking to think about such things unless inspired. Any how.
A good looking girl was at my cousin's party this past Saturday night. She ended up inviting one of his friends over. I thought it was kinda shiesty. First off because the girl was seemingly interested in my cousin and second, because my cousin's friend knew this and still went home with her. He's in the place in his life where I was at one point. Regretting going to school so close to home, not being able to trust people, and just hitting a heavy funk. People lately have been letting him down. And it's not all him depending upon people, just hoping that they'd stick to their word and not lie. I've felt how he feels many times. It's something in our family that we tend to be very sensitive to people. Although we can seem very tough skinned and not care on the outside, it scars us inside. We become a little more coarse if you will. It's the way we've been brought up in our family.
The way this girl has acted has made me think about why I'm single. It also made me laugh when my cousin told me what happened last night after she left with his friend. I was reading her very carefully and not trusting what she said very much. I was right, at least I feel I was. It was a situation of tgtbt (to good to be true). It was because she was saying so much that sounded good, that it just couldn't be true. She was here to hang-out with my cousin, when he wasn't around so much she hung-out with me and his friend. Now I'm not saying it's wrong what my cousin's friend did or what she did, it just looks bad. And in my past experience I've found that you should get consent or at least apologize for what you've done so then there's no hard feelings. My cousin's friend told my cousin what had happened between him and her the previous night and apologized. Kudos to him. She on the other hand didn't say a word to him after she had had a conversation with him today. Not that she was obligated to, but does she honestly think that he won't find out? This is one of the reasons why I'm single. I can't be hurt if I don't put myself in a position to be hurt. I can be lonely, but I think it's easier to fill that gap than to fill the gap of having someone hurt you in a relationship. There's more reasons, that's just one I prefer to discuss now. Anyhow.
Later Folks...