I am very angry with myself right now.

[tribalphoenix]

So I have to stop work on the other journal because i've run into a problem. Screen readers aren't picking up the iframes! So I'll write in here until i fix that problem. Also class work is taking up a lot of my time so I haven't been writing as much

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don't worry

[superblindman]

Hey sweetheart,
I can understand how this dream would shake you up. I wish I had been there to comfort you when you woke. I love you so much and I don't want you to be scared. I would like to point something out that I really really hope will help you. Firstly, the tragedy in that dream is scary enough, so I don't expect this to rid you of your fear completely. But here's what I think. I am not worryed about what happened with you and john in that dream, because you remained true to me the whole time. It was John making the advances. That kind of makes me worry about John, but I'm not worried about us at all. I think we are great, and that we're gonna stay great. Just try to calm down. Imagine me holding you and softly kissing you as I stroke your hair. I know it may not help much, but I'm trying to comfort you as best I can from here. I love you and I'm sure nothing's going to happen. Everything will be ok.
Love,
Brandon

Re: don't worry

[tribalphoenix]

It's not John that I'm worried about. John doesn't think of me in that way. I'm a help and that's it if anything we're like family.

What bothered me so much was even though I did say that I wouldn't betray you, when I woke up I felt I had. That feeling shook me up pretty bad and it broke my heart as well. I never want to feel that way again.

I love you so much and I don't want to lose you.

Re: don't worry

[superblindman]

Don't you worry about a thing. You haven't betrayed me, and I know you never will. You're not about to lose me. You'll never lose me. Not ever. We're too great together for that. I love you more than anything, and I know you feel the same. I have complete trust in you, and that's something I am glad to have. I couldn't even have that with Grace. That's one of the reasons I broke up with her. Anyway, just snuggle with George and try to be as happy as you can.
Tons of kisses,
Brandon