your life mistydaffydwilliamsOctober 26 2004, 20:09:49 UTC
Misty i know that this sounds bad but i cant understand the pain and frustration that u are going through as i have never had it done to me, but i will give a try and help u out as much as i can even though in a weeks time i will back in college BUGGER! It saddens me to read this entery, it has brought a tear to my eye )pardon the expression). I care anbout my friends and what they are going through.
i expect that u have heard this before but anyway, dont beat urself up, u do whats the best thing for u. a saying that has always stuck in my head is that' dont let the bastards grined u down'.
Re: your life mistytribalphoenixOctober 26 2004, 20:15:02 UTC
Daffyd, I love you babe. You have done so much for me just by being here. You have no idea. I just wish you were a little bit closer than what you are. Wales is very very far away *sniffle*
i know ive told you this before but you cant let your parents run your life just because theirs didnt go exactly how they planned it. theres always a happy medium. finish school like they want you to but in the meantime enjoy life. its the only one youve got.
"i cant live my life always worried about 'what if.' cause what if i die tomorrow then i never even lived?" ..plain white t's
"you never would have thought in the end how amazing it feels just to live again. its a feeling that you cannot miss, it burns a hole through everyone that feels it." ..the used
"you try to be everything to everyone - why cant you see what youve become has made you numb to everything you need? ..honestly
"youve got the sand in the palm of your hand - dont let it slip away" ..lucky boys confusion
"walking around in circles with a never changing view - as hopeless as this seems, theres a reason for everything." ..greenwheel
Yeah I think as soon as I finish this homework this weekend I'm going out. John and Justin from Soma yelled at me tonight because I wasn't going to the billiard club for their acoustic night tonight. I definately need to get out and I'm gonna see what's going on.
Hey, sorry it took me so long to read this, but I did and I'm sorry to hear everything is so rough right now.
Find something to make you smile, make you feel good, make you happy, be it a song, a memory, a picture, your kitten, something, anything and keep it near by and when you're feeling down, have it there.
Don't think of graduating just for your parents, do it for you too. Sure school is a pain but look how far you have gotten, and not much further left to go.
Writing is your strong point, maybe write your mom/parents a letter/note explaining this/everything to them, maybe it will help, maybe it won't, I don't know, just an idea.
I think a letter would go in one ear and out the other just like all my pleas to any logic that they may have (or so i thought). As for finding something to make me smile the kitten has helped a lot but it always seems just as I'm getting happy and I'm ready to face the world again something slams me right back to where I was.
Aww. I'm sorry that all of that happened. I understand how something like that feels. I'm not saying that that exact thing happened to me, but I've been through an emotional rollercoaster over the past two years, not to that extent, but it really sucks. Something that always helps me is listening to music and writing poetry/stories. A lot of times poetry can encompass the feelings inside in such a concise way that the reader is captivated by emotion. Often times I will listen to something that basically shows my feelings. When I'm sad or depressed, I'll listen to something like NIN or Silverchair, or I'll write out the lyrics. This may not work, but then again it might. Everyone copes with things differently and that's what helps me. Just try to think of all the good things you have done or all of the fun you've had with your friends. You should enjoy life and try not to let things bring you down. I know it's hard, but always try to look for positives in everything. That's one thing my mom always told me when I was
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Yeah if I had time to write poetry I probably would start again. I like to write short stories too. Stupid class is getting in the way of all that. I really have no coping mechanisim anymore because I have no time for a coping mechanisim so I just bottle it up until the proper moment I can release it which usually ends up with me crying myself to sleep or something.
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i expect that u have heard this before but anyway, dont beat urself up, u do whats the best thing for u. a saying that has always stuck in my head is that' dont let the bastards grined u down'.
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"i cant live my life always worried about 'what if.' cause what if i die tomorrow then i never even lived?"
..plain white t's
"you never would have thought in the end how amazing it feels just to live again. its a feeling that you cannot miss, it burns a hole through everyone that feels it."
..the used
"you try to be everything to everyone - why cant you see what youve become has made you numb to everything you need?
..honestly
"youve got the sand in the palm of your hand - dont let it slip away"
..lucky boys confusion
"walking around in circles with a never changing view - as hopeless as this seems, theres a reason for everything."
..greenwheel
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Find something to make you smile, make you feel good, make you happy, be it a song, a memory, a picture, your kitten, something, anything and keep it near by and when you're feeling down, have it there.
Don't think of graduating just for your parents, do it for you too. Sure school is a pain but look how far you have gotten, and not much further left to go.
Writing is your strong point, maybe write your mom/parents a letter/note explaining this/everything to them, maybe it will help, maybe it won't, I don't know, just an idea.
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