well I am in Reno as you know . . The last couple of weeks have been great . . I love being home agian . . the first SNOW is on Its way an I am Fucking stoked . . well off the the GAyBars . . BYe ByE . .

WEll I am in reno now ..   it  has been great I love being home again . . I love our view from our house you can see the strip an the whole town . .   I got a job at the Atlantis Casino . .   Well I am off  . .

Okay so alot has went on the last couple of weeks . .   mostly work . . I have worked mt ass off . .   I worked for 2 and ahlf weeks straight . . It sucked but whats done is done . . I went to see my sister and stepmom as well as my dad this last weekend in chicago . .   the city was bad ass an so was the shopping . . I also learned how to make ( Read more... )

so its almost up . .  my time here in florida . . I am scared to leave but it is what must be done . . I will miss this place  . . I wish that I could go back in time an change some things. . I cant though . .   all I can say is I am sorry . . I am sorry to the ones I love . . I hope you can one day forgive  . .  an I hope that we can spend one ( Read more... )

so i have the house to myself until monday . .   I was a kinds of happy about that but then I realized I have no one to share it with . .   it will be just a bunch of nights here alone . .  I hate the feeling of being alone . . i guess it will just have to be something that I will have get used to . .   if you need me call my cell . .  if  you can' ( Read more... )

today I spent all day going through my stuff at the apartment . .I thought it would take a quick hour if that to sit and go through what I want . .  How am I to get rid of anything if all I find are memories from better times  . .  I came across things I haven't seen in years . .  I read letters and note from the past  . .  I also found things from ( Read more... )

Huff . . . .  well today was a very long hard day . .   I woke this morning and started doing shit for the move in July .  .  I have come to the conclusion that I am going to just get one of those little baby U-haul things that hook up to the back of your truck and get the hell out . .   I just hope that all the shit of mine and lets keep hoping ( Read more... )

there was once this girl who told me that friends shouldn't date . .  or fall in love for that matter . .   then she turns around after countless fights with me about this . .   she falls in love with a friend that she is dating . .  what the FUCK ? ?  you bitch at me and now you are in the same boat . . don't you ever fucking yell at me for that ( Read more... )

I went to the beach today . .   I t was an okay time I guess . .   I was there with a new friend . .   we talked about our lives and the things we miss most . .   I told my friend that the thing I miss most is myself and my friends  . .   were have they all gone . .   when did everything go out of control . .  was it when she left . .   was it when ( Read more... )

JENNA YOU BROKE MY HEART . .  I wanted nothing more than to spend the evening with you an you FUCKED me Over..  I thought we were better than that . .  All I have wished the last two days was that you would call an say fuck it all . .  get your ass dressed and come on over . .  but in the end you didn't . .  now I sit here with an empty heart ( Read more... )