I"m so tired. Someone let me sleep? I'm staying in Perry tonight. Taking care of the baby madeline. no sleep again. I wish i coudl call in sick today. but i won't ( Read more... )

Eric wrote a story for english. It was really good. I could feel the pain of the characters and the happiness and I could feel how strong the characters memories were. I wonder why? lol The ending was horrible.... at least i still have some hope ( Read more... )

I called eric last night and he wasn't home. But he called me back. It was nice to talk to him i have to say. I told him about my dream and how i interpret it. He didn't say ANYTHING about it. I tried to hint that i wanted to know whathe though but he never has been good at getting my hints. oh well. I think he enjoyed talking to me too ( Read more... )

Still changing. My god. Its like I'm a totally different person. I hear my voice and i don't know who it is. I"m singing in the shower and i actually sound okay lol. I picked up my guitar today and i coudl play it and it didn't make me sad or upset ( Read more... )

Okay... ummm... I didn't realize really that iw asn't eating, like iknew i was not eating as much since the "incident" but like i hadn't really kept track and haven't been hungry. I haven't been depressed more than is normal but i realized today that I hadn't eaten in 5 days. Not cool. I'm not one of those "im insecure gonna go starve myself now" ( Read more... )

I had a new dream. One of my usual eric dreams, only guess what! IT wasn't eric in it!! YEY! and it was yummy dream tooo... hehe ( Read more... )

You're blessed when you are out of options, and all you can do is lean on God. Because when you realize your need for God, it is only then that you tap into His immeasurable greatness and good ness ( Read more... )

My home coputer stopped working so i don't knwo how long till i'll be on again. The library is my only resource till i take it in to get it fixed ( Read more... )

Lauren, I think its happening ( Read more... )

Oh geeze. Man i was so good this moring. I chopped off my hair. It looks so me again. I feel so myself again. you have no idea. BUt when i was sitting at work going nuts i was thinking abotu eric and wrote this whiney letter to his couselor who said if you ever need anything i'm here for you right? So i thought what the hell. But then you are never ( Read more... )