well lets see.... my mom called me at 1235 yesterday morning...told me to be at her house today at 4... n hung up... had me n Paul wondering all nite n all day till i got there. wouldnt have been so weird except she said to come alone. so ya had me wondering... i get there n phil is next door at tonyas smoking with family.... nothin unusual... cept ( Read more... )

picses fucking kicks ass!!!! hell ya!!! lol too sober, must ....find....something... like.....ooo food, yay!! Ice Cream even better! gotta lov the period cravings! teehee!!!!! tootles for now ice creams a calling!

I dont understand it.... in my last emtry i was totally happy... nothing wrong wut so ever... n after dinner we started to play Texas Hold 'em Yahtzee, and in the middle of the game i get so overwhelmed with this feeling of depression, with these thoughts in my head that arent anything i would ever want to think... things i used to think when i ( Read more... )

• Sitting at the computer like always listening to VNV Nation's 'Endless Skies'...and now listening to 'Who Wants to Live Forever'  by Queen...looking over at Paul sleeping every little while. I cant get over all thats gone on. My happiness has slowly but surely been re-emerging, and i find myself smiling every few minutes for absolutely no reaon ( Read more... )

i dont know wut to do... my mind is goin on so many different directions at the same time... im geting lost... im loosing time again... theres a couple of hours from last nite i dont remember at all. ppl r telling me things im saying n doin n i have no clue wut theyre talking about. i keep finding new scratches n shit on my body daily and i am ( Read more... )

after december 8 of this year i will have a warrant out for my arrest....failure to pay money to the state...blah blah blah... point is after this month i will be going to a police station and 'turning myself in'. ill be in jail most likely for a minimum of 90 days for two counts of contempt of court.... and when i do get out (prolly b in the ( Read more... )

my life's calling has been declared ( Read more... )

my life's calling has been declared ( Read more... )

lol yup i was rite i didnt like wut Paul had to say..... but hey at least its not in the lines of wut i thought i was gunna hear... lol im sych a dork!!!! lol my good friend Mr. razor Blade is gunna be hiding in my bra for a while... or until i forget about it n it stabs me in the boob! lol.... promise that ill try to keep it there n not use... ( Read more... )

Sittim here smoking a joint, finally kinda calm...the stress and drama in life that has unfolded in the past twenty four hours is crsazyiness....thats the only word i know that fits for rite now.feelings being revealed about one persons love to another....secrets being kept from the ppl closest to u. the uncertainty in the words coming out of ones ( Read more... )