(Originally on FA) Soya's Memorandum.

[trigem]

( Also crossposted this on Lulz first, because apparently what I posted there, really got their moral panties in a bind and the dogfucker, assholery comments began to fire off like drunken chinese fireworks. I'm also posting this to LJ as well

Comments

[rev_marcus]

I'm so sorry for your lost. I know how hard it can be; we lost our beautiful white Samoyed to cancer. On our ride from Morphicon to Nelsonville, you told me how special she was to you. It has to be so much harder when pricks respond with self-righteousness instead of sympathy & understanding.

[trigem]

Yeah, I try no to think too hard about her, not because I want to forget, but, rather if I remember TOO hard I'll break down in tears again. What breakes me up a little each time is going out into the front room, not seeing her on the couch, or flopped somewhere, wanting to call out her name :( *sigh* Okay I'm stopping now, :(

But yeah, no other dog will replace her, ever, and I plan on keeping it that way. Once my friend Julie and husband get their lives together Julie's offered to take Eclipse and Juna, eventhough I love these two having them around only hurts worse, knowing that I feel like I betray Soya, etc, by cuddling up to them.

Though don't worry about the trolls, heh, I'm fully aware of what they're going to say on their website, etc, blah blah, one reason I go there, keeps my anti-troll armor thick and well up to spec :D

[thewerewolf]

*hugs* Geeze, you're going through enough without the psycho squad dumping on you for their issues.

Really - empathy is becoming a rare skill these days.

I know it sounds trite, but hold on to the fact that you gave her a happy life and were there with her to the end. You'll carry her memories on with you.

As for the lulz, best left forgotten, my friend.

[trigem]

Honestly I don't know WHY I didn't post this here originally. I guess in the midst of it all, I forgot to post it here. -\o.O/-

But yeah, it sucks what I had to do, and it's going to haunt me the rest of my life, but nothing else that could have been done, and everytime my mind goes there, I quickly advert it to all the awesome times over the last 12 years.

And eh, I don't mind the lulz, it keeps me reminded that there are some real assholes out there and I'd like to think that I'm much more above them, eventhough I'm sometimes swimming in the same cesspool with them. Ya know, When in Rome... :/