Fanmix - Captain Jack Harkness - I'm Still Here
So, I think Jack and Ianto are quite possibly television’s most adorable couple … but ultimately, I want Jack to end up with the Doctor. In terms of getting screwed over for falling in love with the Doctor, Rose and Martha have nothing on Jack. He sacrificed everything for the Doctor, and in return got abandoned and left to spend over 130 years trying to find him again. And then the Doctor tried to run out on him again. Because the Doctor is an idiot. Jack is obviously perfect for him. Re-watching Series 1 of Doctor Who just confirmed that the Doctor and Jack were just so good for each other. Seriously, they work so well together (“Let’s do it.”); and now that Jack is immortal, he can literally travel with the Doctor forever, and the Doctor can stop angsting about how he always has to go on alone. I would like nothing more than for the Doctor to stop being an idiot and realize this. Anyway, with that in mind, I made a mix for Jack’s story arc of meeting the Doctor, getting abandoned, joining Torchwood, waiting for the Doctor, and finally finding him again.
Note: The cover art is made by the very lovely builtofsorrow .
I’m Still Here
A Jack Harkness Fanmix
(zip including cover art)
Homesick - Kings of Convenience
Every day there’s a boy in the mirror
Asking me what are you doing here
Finding all my previous motives
Growing increasingly unclear
I traveled far and I burned all the bridges
I believed as soon as I hit land
All the other
Options held before me
Will wither in the light of my plan
Homesick
‘Cause I no longer know
Where home is...
Jack: I left home a long time ago. Don’t really know where I really belong. (TW 2x03)
[Because even though he acted like he didn’t care, I think pre-Doctor!Jack was trying to bury the pain of what had happened to his family, and Rose and the Doctor found him just when he needed them most.]
You’re a God - Vertical Horizon
You’re a God
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You’re a God
And I am not
And I just thought
I’d let you go…
Doctor: You see, Jack? That’s the decision I’ve got to make for every living thing: Die as a human, or live as a Dalek. What would you do?
Jack: You sent her home. She’s safe. Keeping working!
Emperor: But he will exterminate you.
Jack: Never doubted him. Never will. (DW 1x13)
[I think what makes the last three episodes of Series One so heartbreaking in regards to Jack, is that you can see how much he clearly loves and idolizes the Doctor, and he gets so little back.]
Mad About You - Sting
I walked a lonely mile in the moonlight
And though a million stars were shining
My heart was lost on a distant planet
That whirls around the April moon
Whirling in an arc of sadness
I’m lost without you…
But every step I thought of you
Every footstep only you
And every star a grain of sand
The leavings of a dried up ocean
Tell me, how much longer?
How much longer?
Emily: Who’s the Doctor?
Jack: No idea.
Alice: Hmm. “The Doctor, he’ll be able to fix me.” “When the Doctor turns up, it will all be put right.” “You wait ‘til I see the Doctor. First I’m going to kiss him, then I’m going to kill him.” (TW 2x12)
[I’ve seen this on a lot of Doctor/Rose mixes, and it definitely is a Doctor/Rose song, but it also works as a Jack-waiting-for-the-Doctor song. It very much has the element of “first I’m going to kiss him, then I’m going to kill him”.]
Anthem of Our Dying Day - Story of the Year
This is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world…
Jack: You mean I have to wait a hundred years to find him? What’ll I do in the mean time? (TW 2x12)
[Angsty!Jack standing on a Cardiff rooftop waiting for the Doctor to show up.]
My Favorite Coat - Deb Talan
In my coat I am a superhero
Traveling through space and time
Impervious to pain…
Tosh: What do you do?
Jack: Protect people. At least that’s what I’m aiming for. It’s kind of a work in progress. (TW 2x12)
[What Jack did in the mean time. Seriously, he really loves that coat. Also, how adorable is it that when Jack and the Doctor reunited, they both had added awesome long coats to their wardrobes?]
Shattered - Trading Yesterday
Yesterday I died, tomorrow’s bleeding…
The future’s open wide beyond believing…
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
A reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
With love gone for so long…
And this day’s ending
Is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all that I hold…
Gwen: What would have tempted you? What visions would have convinced you to open the Rift?
Jack: The right kind of Doctor. (TW1x13)
[It was so hard for me not to copy and paste the lyrics in their entirety. This is such a perfect song for Jack towards the end of Series 1 of Torchwood.]
Through Glass - Stone Sour
I’m looking at you through the glass
Don’t know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
And while you’re outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you’re staring at is me…
Doctor: It’s not easy even just - just looking at you, Jack, ‘cos you’re wrong.
Jack: Thanks.
Doctor: You are, I can’t help it. I’m a Time Lord, it’s instinct. It’s in my guts. You’re a fixed point in time and space. You’re a fact. That’s never meant to happen. Even the TARDIS reacted against you, tried to shake you off. Flew all the way to the end of the universe just to get rid of you.
Jack: So what you’re saying is you’re … prejudiced?
Doctor: I never thought of it like that.
Jack: Shame on you! (DW 3x11)
[Jack and the Doctor during the radiation room scene in Utopia. Enough said.]
Sideways - Matt Caplan
Now even in this silence there’s a thunder,
And rain that steals the breath beneath this cage
And at least I’ve got your memory to soothe me
This bitter poison ripening with age
Because everything I’ve ever done, I’ve done because I love you
Silly you should ask
I’m afraid that I’ll spend the better part of next year scared that I might need you
Bring me down and I’ll feel again
Everything I’ve ever done, I’ve done because I love you
Sideways
Doctor: Everything Torchwood did, and you’re part of it!
Jack: The old regime was destroyed at Canary Warf. I rebuilt it; I changed it. And when I did that, I did it for you in your honor! (DW 3x12)
[Translation: “Damn it, Doctor, I love you!”]
I’m Still Here - John Rzeznik
I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that’s held in your arms
And what do you think you’d ever say?
I won’t listen anyway
You don’t know me
And I’ll never be what you want me to be…
I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don’t feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They’re the ones that stay the same
They can’t see me
But I’m still here
Doctor: You’re an impossible thing, Jack.
Jack: Been called that before! (DW 3x13)
[The ultimate Jack song. Even after the Doctor dies and the world ends, he’ll still be here.]
Bonus: The Doctor and I - John Barrowman
And this gift or this curse
I have inside
Maybe at last I’ll know why
When we are hand in hand
The Doctor and I…
Jack: Something happened to me a while back. Long story and far away. But I was killed, and I was brought back to life, and since then, I can’t die. … One day I’ll find a Doctor, the right sort of Doctor, and maybe he can explain it… (TW 1x01)
[Couldn’t resist! I apologize for the crappy quality (I actually have no idea where this came from).]
Note: The cover art is made by the very lovely builtofsorrow .
I’m Still Here
A Jack Harkness Fanmix
(zip including cover art)
Homesick - Kings of Convenience
Every day there’s a boy in the mirror
Asking me what are you doing here
Finding all my previous motives
Growing increasingly unclear
I traveled far and I burned all the bridges
I believed as soon as I hit land
All the other
Options held before me
Will wither in the light of my plan
Homesick
‘Cause I no longer know
Where home is...
Jack: I left home a long time ago. Don’t really know where I really belong. (TW 2x03)
[Because even though he acted like he didn’t care, I think pre-Doctor!Jack was trying to bury the pain of what had happened to his family, and Rose and the Doctor found him just when he needed them most.]
You’re a God - Vertical Horizon
You’re a God
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You’re a God
And I am not
And I just thought
I’d let you go…
Doctor: You see, Jack? That’s the decision I’ve got to make for every living thing: Die as a human, or live as a Dalek. What would you do?
Jack: You sent her home. She’s safe. Keeping working!
Emperor: But he will exterminate you.
Jack: Never doubted him. Never will. (DW 1x13)
[I think what makes the last three episodes of Series One so heartbreaking in regards to Jack, is that you can see how much he clearly loves and idolizes the Doctor, and he gets so little back.]
Mad About You - Sting
I walked a lonely mile in the moonlight
And though a million stars were shining
My heart was lost on a distant planet
That whirls around the April moon
Whirling in an arc of sadness
I’m lost without you…
But every step I thought of you
Every footstep only you
And every star a grain of sand
The leavings of a dried up ocean
Tell me, how much longer?
How much longer?
Emily: Who’s the Doctor?
Jack: No idea.
Alice: Hmm. “The Doctor, he’ll be able to fix me.” “When the Doctor turns up, it will all be put right.” “You wait ‘til I see the Doctor. First I’m going to kiss him, then I’m going to kill him.” (TW 2x12)
[I’ve seen this on a lot of Doctor/Rose mixes, and it definitely is a Doctor/Rose song, but it also works as a Jack-waiting-for-the-Doctor song. It very much has the element of “first I’m going to kiss him, then I’m going to kill him”.]
Anthem of Our Dying Day - Story of the Year
This is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world…
Jack: You mean I have to wait a hundred years to find him? What’ll I do in the mean time? (TW 2x12)
[Angsty!Jack standing on a Cardiff rooftop waiting for the Doctor to show up.]
My Favorite Coat - Deb Talan
In my coat I am a superhero
Traveling through space and time
Impervious to pain…
Tosh: What do you do?
Jack: Protect people. At least that’s what I’m aiming for. It’s kind of a work in progress. (TW 2x12)
[What Jack did in the mean time. Seriously, he really loves that coat. Also, how adorable is it that when Jack and the Doctor reunited, they both had added awesome long coats to their wardrobes?]
Shattered - Trading Yesterday
Yesterday I died, tomorrow’s bleeding…
The future’s open wide beyond believing…
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
A reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
With love gone for so long…
And this day’s ending
Is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all that I hold…
Gwen: What would have tempted you? What visions would have convinced you to open the Rift?
Jack: The right kind of Doctor. (TW1x13)
[It was so hard for me not to copy and paste the lyrics in their entirety. This is such a perfect song for Jack towards the end of Series 1 of Torchwood.]
Through Glass - Stone Sour
I’m looking at you through the glass
Don’t know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
And while you’re outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you’re staring at is me…
Doctor: It’s not easy even just - just looking at you, Jack, ‘cos you’re wrong.
Jack: Thanks.
Doctor: You are, I can’t help it. I’m a Time Lord, it’s instinct. It’s in my guts. You’re a fixed point in time and space. You’re a fact. That’s never meant to happen. Even the TARDIS reacted against you, tried to shake you off. Flew all the way to the end of the universe just to get rid of you.
Jack: So what you’re saying is you’re … prejudiced?
Doctor: I never thought of it like that.
Jack: Shame on you! (DW 3x11)
[Jack and the Doctor during the radiation room scene in Utopia. Enough said.]
Sideways - Matt Caplan
Now even in this silence there’s a thunder,
And rain that steals the breath beneath this cage
And at least I’ve got your memory to soothe me
This bitter poison ripening with age
Because everything I’ve ever done, I’ve done because I love you
Silly you should ask
I’m afraid that I’ll spend the better part of next year scared that I might need you
Bring me down and I’ll feel again
Everything I’ve ever done, I’ve done because I love you
Sideways
Doctor: Everything Torchwood did, and you’re part of it!
Jack: The old regime was destroyed at Canary Warf. I rebuilt it; I changed it. And when I did that, I did it for you in your honor! (DW 3x12)
[Translation: “Damn it, Doctor, I love you!”]
I’m Still Here - John Rzeznik
I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that’s held in your arms
And what do you think you’d ever say?
I won’t listen anyway
You don’t know me
And I’ll never be what you want me to be…
I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don’t feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They’re the ones that stay the same
They can’t see me
But I’m still here
Doctor: You’re an impossible thing, Jack.
Jack: Been called that before! (DW 3x13)
[The ultimate Jack song. Even after the Doctor dies and the world ends, he’ll still be here.]
Bonus: The Doctor and I - John Barrowman
And this gift or this curse
I have inside
Maybe at last I’ll know why
When we are hand in hand
The Doctor and I…
Jack: Something happened to me a while back. Long story and far away. But I was killed, and I was brought back to life, and since then, I can’t die. … One day I’ll find a Doctor, the right sort of Doctor, and maybe he can explain it… (TW 1x01)
[Couldn’t resist! I apologize for the crappy quality (I actually have no idea where this came from).]