i feel very odd, but in a good way. i feel peace within myself. we'll see how long it lasts. i finally made myself lay down this morning around 6:30. candles lit everywhere in my room (i actually cleaned it when i got home...and i was far from sober.) the night wasn't a total waste or disaster like i thought it would be...as it is every year. so i ( Read more... )

my stepmom wrote me an email today...it was pretty blunt and brutal. she seems to believe that i am a spoiled brat and that i care nothing of the family...yea okay whatever. who made the first step in making us a family again? oh yea, that was me. who got my father to go to therapy for depression and get on some meds? oh yea, that was ME. okay..yea ( Read more... )

well...i am alive, it has been a bit since i did any sort of real update. so, this will be a teaser..cuz i dont feel like doing any real writing. i shall update soon. love ya all,

-the erin

i received a letter from my dad yesterday...it's been nearly 9 months. my new sister's name is Savana Jane Andershock ( Read more... )

someone called my cell maybe 30min ago?....whooooooo was it. i dont have caller i.d. i have a ghetto prepaid phone. i didn't have voicemail activated cuz it uses up my minutes when checking and when someone leaves a msg...but i will now. im sick of getting missed calls and i have no idea who it was. sooo if ya did, sorry. i was picking up from ( Read more... )

happy turkey day everyone. i agree with derek, i am thankful this day will have an end. holidays and family get togethers generally consist of asking what your future plans are followed by several small lectures. i think i'll plant myself downstairs and play pool instead. we shall see what happens....i have 2 hrs until it all begins. i am looking ( Read more... )

I gave you all the love I've got ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night that my mom cut my arm up with a kitchen knife because i didn't make my car payment on time...now that..is fucked up...didn't hurt though, so that's a plus ( Read more... )

im very sick....very sad...have some money probs at the moment...my mom wont get off my case...sighs. this cold will just not go away...it seems like it is, then just gets worse. im off today and i spent the whole day sleeping..and most of the evening. i hope im better by saturday...i work saturday night and sunday morning and monday morning and ( Read more... )

i am tired...i am drained....i am sick...i have no energy. i have some...alright..some..but barely enough to work. to my suprise i got a call from David (i babysit his kids) a few minutes ago, telling me they won't be home until tommorow evening...which means i don't have to wake up at 6 tommorow morning...which makes erin so very happy..see the ( Read more... )