and it's funny.... 
because you'll never read this anyway...

 i'm dumb.
really dumb.

but it's fine. 
i'm home from college on break currently and it's been the weirdest month. 
my gpa was stellar. i should be ecstatic. but all i can think about is whether or not i'm in the right major... and whether or not i want to puruse the career i had in mind. i don't even know. everything is so confusing. i have no idea ( Read more... )

 Two months.

It's amazing how much can change in two months. 
I last posted when I first got here, and I guess I've officially settled in.... or as close to settled in as I'm going to become. 
It's hard to say what expectations I had when coming here... something along the lines of starting over and final being able to be me. 
College is nothing like ( Read more... )

so i really don't care if people read this or not, it's more for my own sanity. 
i have officially been in college for one week, and i really don't know what to say about it. 
college is a lot like high school, except for the fact that instead of me being the only one with freedom, everyone seems to have it.
instead of enjoying this, i seem to be ( Read more... )

yeah, i'm feeling enlightening again ( Read more... )

i'm feeling enlightening again. i don't know why, but i am ( Read more... )

i hate high schoool. 
i hate being a senior.
i hate that i'm going away to college and i'm not going to be able to make friends.
i hate that i am scared shitless to go to college
i hate that i'm going to be on my own for the rest of my life
i hate that i worry all the time about that
i hate that boys lie.
i hate that no one cares about me.
i hate that when ( Read more... )

today was interesting... to say the least ( Read more... )

so, it's been approximately two full years since i last posted in this thing.
I can't even begin to say how much has happened.... looking back on these entries, i realized how emo i truly was back in the day. 
and how much i wanted to find real love.

well, i found it. 
...and i then lost it. 
 and that's just the way things go. 
it's okay now, i mean, i ( Read more... )

I want a boy.
A nice and bad boy.
A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it...
He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga.
He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.
He’ll stay home with me and watch Disney Movies.
And he'll tell me he loves it even though he doesn’t,
and the only person he would ever watch it with would be me.
He'll call me at 3am ( Read more... )