Brad's reading a book about time and time management, and how things…: trist

trist

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Oct 23, 2005 15:35

Brad's reading a book about time and time management, and how things are so 'fast paced' now. He gave me the 50 page overview last night. It sounds like a good book, and it really got me thinking. I am kind of working myself too hard, and trying to be an adult way too early. Slowww it dowwwwwn.

Alright, middle school, my life consisted of 2 or 3 friends, soccer, and dance. School was easy, I dont even remember having homework, I wasnt on any other activities like student council where I had to set some example, or be a great student. My 2 friends and I hung out every single day, and did everything together. I bet we were so annoying. I think I miss that. And, as far as soccer and dance, those were my hobbies. They were not my obligations. I enjoyed being with my teammates and thought of practice as fun, instead of a chore, or obligation, as I do now. The same goes for dancing. I remember Monday night dance classes, those were my favorite. I wasnt the best, but I wasnt bad either. I could dance well enough, and it took everything away. Something about that stupid techno dance warm up music really got to me. I just loved it, and I could de-stress myself through dance.

And then there's now. Well, what's there to say. My life is busier than it has ever been, which I'm sure is the same for most highschool seniors, but I really dont care for it. I'm embarassed that I cary a planner in my purse. One to record my NHS opportunities, and my soccer practices and games, and student activities and student council meetings and events. Then, aside from all of that, I still find it almost necessary to write in "hang out with ______." How dumb. Why would I ever do that! Make myself seem even more busy. I surely dont think I'm cool becuase I put dates in a book, I actually think I'm kind of ridiculous. I've decided to start doing the bare minimum for NHS, because I simply do not have the time, or a care in the world! Student council has always been my priority, mainly because things have to get done and I am the one that is obligated to do them. Obligation is no fun though, its quite the contrary. Soccer, I had to bail on for my Farmington team, becuase I was way to stressed out for a while. I am just going to go to the games, and put much more effort into the real outdoor season for Western. Indoor is coming, I'm really looking forward to that. I wish I could find a way to order and arrange my thoughts into these couple of paragraphs. Oh well. What I am trying to say, is that I think I am moving too fast. I think you are all moving too fast. We are. How ridiculous is it, that people cant seem to leave their cell phone somewhere else. I'm very guilty of this! It takes some effort to just leave it in the car, or my purse. It's always in my pocket. But at the same time, I dont want to leave it somewhere else, becuase I would miss vital text messages. For example, from Jess today, "do you want something from Tim Hortons?" Could you imagine if I had missed something like that? DEAD. And there are other things too, like myspace, and the internet, and downloading, and ipods and tvs and video games. I could probably just play with chalk, or capture the flag, or soccer and be satisfied, but not so much anymore. I think I probably gain like 0.1 pounds a day. It's going to start adding up if I dont exercise. Time is useless. Clocks are useless. There is no bed time. It's never too late, and there shouldn't be due dates. Let it roll.

Today is a bad day for my petpeeves. This week, maybe. Yesterday I had to run with gloves on in my soccer game. MAN. At concessions, hot dog juice got ALL OVER ME. I admit it, I freaked out. And today, ohhhhh today. My nose. Okay, you know sometimes theres SOMETHING in there cloggin' up some airway? Well, my airways are cloged, and my nose is whistling. I hate a whistling nose, you have no idea. Call me crazy, go ahead. Oh and people lately just love to chew loud. ESPECIALLY MR. KUSSY. OHHHH my gosh shut up.

I started reading a new novel today. I am reading the Notebook. It is only a little different from the movie, so far so good. Iam on page 56 out of 207. I'm going to go read now, in fact! ---- Okay. So I went and tread it, and it is the saddest book I have ever read. I wont go into detail because if you've seen the movie you know whatsup, but I do suggest reading it. I cried three times hahaaa what a baby.

On Thursday, I did concessions at the game. They were so dumb, you have no idea. Not because 'it sucked so bad' becuase it really didnt. Me, Ms Anastos, and Scott just talked about how mean Ms. Smedley is, hahaa, and about other people and stuff. It really wasnt that bad at all, except I am sick of her calling me ma'am. IM 17.!?!?! But alright. The concessions were dumb, becuase of the people that came. Okay, we had to make the hot chocolate, so first we heated up the water. Then we poured it into a cooler/heater???? so it would say warm. Then we mixed in the chocolate. once we had enough cocoa, we made coffee. Unfortuantely, the coffee wasn't made until around 6:45ish? and the adults were freaking out. The first lady was like blah blah blah 2 coffee's..."I'm sorry we dont have the coffee made yet.. it's going to be about 20 minutes or so." "what!? Your kidding me.. ::looks pissed::" I was like hehehe, no. And then she was mean. The next guy, same thing. Next guy, same thing. After about 6 or 7 "are you kidding me?"s I just started saying "No, why would I kid about that. It's not funny." except obviously not loud enough for them to hear. I dont know little things liike that were making me so angry last night, but it did. Alot.

I wont get into the other things that made me mad on Thursday, hah.

I had an interesting last 10 minutes! I just went to Amanda's house to get some crushed tomatos for mi madre, and I had a little chat with DANA! Aunt Jodi was there, Dana, and Lyss. First I hate some of Aunt Jodi's cookies. Then, some pizza, and talked a little. Ha. Then, they had me watch "mirrors" by pastor Chris. HAHAHHH. Except it wasn't that bad. Good job. Then, my mom called wondering where her crushed tomatos were, and Dana said I was busy, I wanted to go to bible study, and that I just flipped her the bird, and that I'm going to hell. Man, I like that house.

"I had a dream last night our coubards were filled with cateepillars" - Mom. HAHAHA!?!?!!!!!!!!

I dont know what it is, about the past week or so, but I hope it changes. I need to get out of this.

The football game was so dumb!? Me and Sara got there after cracking up about life... and making all these stpuid jokes for no reason. We went to the central side, saw Devon hahahah, and then went to the western side. We sat in the stands with a bunch of kids, but I felt like nobody was there. It was weird. I think it was cause Sam and Shane and Haley and Megan werent there. It seems that they're always there. Except Sam got there later. Anyways, me and Sara were so bored, it was ridiculous. We went and 'walked around' for a while, and then we saw Aaron. :)! I was so glad to see him, I miss him alllllways. Me and Sara wrapped up in his animal comforter hah, and then we left. We met up at Coldstone and then went to His house. We got there before he did, and we watched How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days with his mom. Then he got home, and we stayed watching it. At 12:15 we left and got home in like, 4 minutes because we were so late.

I am really sick of random words having more than one letter at the end. Like: Guitarrr, Musicc, todaayy. Just random examples, but I am sick of those little things that are so unimportant, that I dont even know why I notice. Another thing, would be when people use two &'s. "I'm going to the store && then the movies." Maybe I'm just mad because I think it looks cool and I want to do it haha. I just never make the trends. It's becuase I'm so lame.

This weekend has been pretty good! Friday was the game, which I already went to detail on, and Saturday was random. I woke up and did chores and all kinds of things like that, and then I fell asleep. Sara called and told me she was in my driveway and we were going to take a slurpee to David. I still have no clue why we did. But, we went to 711 and Janis is doing better, and we saw Drew and Jenny there. We got to Davids and gave him a slurpee. Then we gave one to Russ. THEN, we went inside and Spags played the guitar and we lounged around the kitchen hah. Then we left, and I told David I'd be back for him so we could run errands together lol. I went home and showered and got ready, and Sara went to work. I went and picked up Katie and we went to Borders to get my mom a book. Then, some stupid idiot pulled in front of me and I was so mad at him so I kept flashing my brights at him like a jerk. After this fiasco, we went back to Davids. Holly and Scotty were there, and we brought Cinn. bread from HH. Me, David, and Katie ate it up so fast it was crazy. David was a pig and says "Mmm... mmm!" way too much and I was laughing so much at him. We finished eating and unloaded and then loaded the dishwasher and cleaned up. It was funny, I dont know what posessed me to do that haha. Then the five of us went to the basement and played games and Scotty and Katie were bored out of their minds but I had fuN?? I beat katie in darts, and then Scotty left. Greg came downstairs and said hi, and me, Katie, and David watched Top Gun and it was good, I'd never seen it before that. I dont know why it was PG though???????! The movie ended, we went home, and I talked online for a while. Then I talked to Sara and David and went to bed. I like those Boyds. 4 boy(d)s, my favorite band hahhaaah.

Speaking of Boyds, I havent spoken with Brad since Wednesday, which kind of makes me think he doesn't care all that much about being a boyfriend, or rather, having a girlfriend, which is a let down. I suppose I am probably over analyzing, and he's just to consumed in having a fun time with SMC. But, I have conversed with Mr. Steve Carroll since they left, and about how it's 'too bad he hasn't gotten ahold of lauren' since theyve been up. Ohyeahhibrad. Auh? I suppose I'll just hang out at their house, and pretend that I never thought of any of this.

Today, I woke up at around 12. Adam came over and 1 and we went to lunch just like we should. I miss him probably more than any of my college friends, mainly becuase he was my best friend. I suppose I could say he still is, but only becuase I haven't really hung out or talked to anyone lately. Other than Sara and Brad. And David. Everyone works and is busy and doing things, and all I want to do is go to applebees with my friends like OLD TIMES! Oh, speaking of old times though, I talked to Jaci yesterday, and Andrew for a little. It was a HALLsaturday. But anyways, about today, me and Adam went to Caribou and then Coney's and Paul's family was there and it was cute. We talked about life and Keith's mom makes the best cookies in the world. God I miss Adam alottttt.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 5 freaking AM so me and Nikki can take Mojo in the Morning's crew some bagels and fruit and crap like that. We have to be there at around 6:30, and then make it to school in time, and it's just going to suck. I dont even plan on doing my homework, beucase well, I just dont feel like it. I'm going to go upstairs and clean my room, and then probably the rest of the house, and who knows what else. Go to get some fruit with Nikki for tomorrow. Maybe Brad will call. Hopefully?

I dont know if I am overreacting, or just really used to feeling close to perfect in the past, but ever since those days, it seems nothing really works anymore. I am probably just selfish and used to the B.O.T.B. hahaha. I am so weird. Okay. well I do want to finally update this guy, so I'm going to throw in some pictures but they arent new. Just some random ones I guess. I'm too afraid of this being boring, haha.