A long way down

[tristantrakand]

Before anything else -- I did it! I went out there and started a book blog. You can check it out over here. It's pretty sparse at the moment, but I have quite a few entries planned and a thing that I hope people will enjoy.

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Last week, I posted on my Facebook Wall the agonizing last words of programmer Bill Zeller. It's a suicide note

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[innocentlyjaded]

... that was a harrowing read ;__; But beautiful too.

I've had a similar sort of childhood trauma. And I've told it four times. To my mother, who promptly cried and found me a shrink (which didn't help); Then to a catholic group (I was told not to make problems out of nothing). To my barkada in UST (who were generally supportive), and to a just-recently former boss (who was also generally supportive).

I didn't really know, back then, on what reaction I wanted to get from them. I just wanted it out of my system. I wish you had more supportive friends around you when you told them.

[tristantrakand]

I think I only just wanted it out of my system as well, but I definitely didn't like the reactions I did get when I finally shared my pain. I turned to journal writing instead, and it helped me thresh out issues I had with my own trauma.

I don't know if we emerged better or worse from our traumas, but I like to think that we've turned out as well as we could despite everything.

[jehane_writes]

*hugs* I am so sorry, bb.

FWIW, I have trauma, too, and I learned to share and people (friends, boyfriends) were kind and helped me. It got better; I got better, and these days I share openly if I think it might help. I'm sorry you didn't get the support you needed then. If you think it would help, I'm here.

[tristantrakand]

*hugs back*

I think I've dealt pretty well with the less than welcoming responses to people I've shared my trauma with. I just turned to journal writing and dealt with my feelings as best as I could there.

Also, I eat a lot. XD

[ravyn_ashling]

i've had my share of traumatic memories from my childhood, but they were things i'd witnessed more than anything, so i can't really say i know what it feels like. usually, i'm the one being confessed to about such things, i guess i'm a good listener? i guess it's because that's the best i could do. and also *HUGS* ♥♥

congratulations on finally creating a blog btw! adding it to my feed at once. ♥

[tristantrakand]

HUGS ARE ALWAYS APPRECIATED!

[no_mere_mortal]

Aw, Ron! *hugs*

There are a lot of people who don't really know how to handle revelations that are a little sensitive. I'm sorry that you were unfortunate enough to encounter them every time you decided to confide your trauma.

I do hope that said trauma does not carry as much pain or shame it does and I hope that you could tell it again and you'd that time, you'd be lucky.

Also, na-inspire ako sa post na ito; will me making one with the same theme.

*hugs again*

Papadalan kita ng malaking-malaking meatball balang araw!

[tristantrakand]

I hope that you could tell it again

I've been able to tell it again, in a way, because I got into writing journals. Really helped me thresh out some issues. I think.

Also, na-inspire ako sa post na ito; will me making one with the same theme.

Saan mo ipopost? Dito o sa Blogger mo? :D

[twilightdazzle]

Sending hugs your way! :')

Time heals all wounds bb. One day, you'll tell yourself. One day.

[tristantrakand]

Hugs are always appreciated!

*hugs back*

I think I turned out well despite everything. I turned to journal writing when people failed me, and it's helped me thresh out a lot of issues. :D