im really considering moving... i'm just gunna leave.. not really tell anyone...just go. no one would really care that im gone anyway... and atleast that way i could make up what to do with myself instead of having to listen to everyone who talks to  me once a week bitch about shit... if you dont like me enough to talk to me more than once a week ( Read more... )

all of a sudden.... i don't feel like me anymore... i don't know why, it just... doesnt work in my head anymore... i stopped acting like me, i dont look like myself anymore... and im just... not me.... i hate this... i hate me now.... even more than i did before...

heh... i think today was a good day. target. mall. major back pain due to 5 hours of putting in a new car stereo. 2 hours of that spent upside down hanging out the car door so i could be under the dash.

Fuck It.

ok so yeah... i wake up late, shower and leave for work... i felt like shit.  traffic sucked passing the high school so i got to work 5 minutes late and ed yelled at me for being late, and then gave me a 15 minute lecture on why i should do things right and take pride in my work, because i did a semi-streaky job on the windows last night cuz i ( Read more... )

for the first time in a while... im happy... im happy with myself, im happy with my life, im just... happy... i wish i had more money and didnt work with ed... but whatever... trivial problems.  im a real prick to people lately, i drink too much coffee, i quit smoking, i painted my lighter so it looks cool, im designing tatoos and cd covers for ( Read more... )

yeah... that's right motherfucker.


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yeah.  I realized tonight that no matter how much I don't want to believe it, no one gives a damn about me.  I could spontaniously combust and the most reaction it would get would be oh well.  I'm sick of this.  I'm sick of people fucking with my feelings.  I'm sick of giving humans the benefit of the doubt and being nice to them before I realize ( Read more... )

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haultristhetfodt goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Lord Belial.anti_y0u tricks you! You get a wad of paper.aralas_9 tricks you! You get a clothespin.aster_ gives you 5 red-orange peach-flavoured nuggets.dollstained gives you 5 brown grape-flavoured gummy worms.earnmywings tricks you! You get a rock.eye_of_the_knor ( Read more... )

Heh... I came to realize a few things in the past few hours.... and I've finally come to terms with myself and am beginning to accept who I really am.... I'm me. I'm ugly, fat, and stupid, and I'm a dumb emo bastard.  that's who I am. Nothing more, nothing less, just me.  people have told me im crazy or depressed or upset or other dumb shit every ( Read more... )