What happens tomorrow?
A sum up of today.......because I can't sleep and I need to say things.
To a generation of fans who have grown up with Minogue as a fashion and music icon, yesterday's news of her illness will have a devastating personal effect. Minogue's glamour has made fame and success tangible for everyone else. Paradoxically, if Kylie Minogue can get breast cancer, so can anyone else.
And so there it is - the hammer that hit the nail on the head.
I have actually been crying all day today over someone I don't even know and that's why. I'm scared of this whole world - what it has in store for us. I'm someone who is always in control, always on top of things and never not in the know. I hate that fact that stuff can happen and I can have no control over it. I don't like not knowing what's going to happen tomorrow - its scares me.
I wonder if Kylie's news has had this affect on all her fans today. It's hard to say since her three main forums have been closed down and any other place in which I'd chat has more baggage than I can handle at the moment. In times of trouble I do go to my real life mates first - but today I don't know, I needed to be involved in a community and nothing was there.
I've always wanted to be Kylie. She was my first idol - the first person I saw on TV. I was never into kids shows, just Neighbours. I copied her dancing, I dressed like her - I wanted to be her and yet today I bet everyone who wished to be Kylie changed their minds.
It scares me that someone like her has got sick. You always think it's someone else - the other type of person. But it's all of us. I think I've spent this whole year being scared; scared about Baby, scared about my health, my familys health, work, friends, the future. This has happened ever since we lost our cousin 2 years ago. It's just left me in constant fear about life and how easily it can be snatched away.
I hate hearing about all these good, amazing people getting sick. Not because it bores me or because I don't want to listen but because why.....I know there's no answer but being healthy shouldn't be too much to ask.
I'm so confident and brash, yet in this area I'm a wreck. It's a wierd thing - you can be happy with everything you've got and yet that makes you scared because there's more to lose.
I feel so isolated today.
To a generation of fans who have grown up with Minogue as a fashion and music icon, yesterday's news of her illness will have a devastating personal effect. Minogue's glamour has made fame and success tangible for everyone else. Paradoxically, if Kylie Minogue can get breast cancer, so can anyone else.
And so there it is - the hammer that hit the nail on the head.
I have actually been crying all day today over someone I don't even know and that's why. I'm scared of this whole world - what it has in store for us. I'm someone who is always in control, always on top of things and never not in the know. I hate that fact that stuff can happen and I can have no control over it. I don't like not knowing what's going to happen tomorrow - its scares me.
I wonder if Kylie's news has had this affect on all her fans today. It's hard to say since her three main forums have been closed down and any other place in which I'd chat has more baggage than I can handle at the moment. In times of trouble I do go to my real life mates first - but today I don't know, I needed to be involved in a community and nothing was there.
I've always wanted to be Kylie. She was my first idol - the first person I saw on TV. I was never into kids shows, just Neighbours. I copied her dancing, I dressed like her - I wanted to be her and yet today I bet everyone who wished to be Kylie changed their minds.
It scares me that someone like her has got sick. You always think it's someone else - the other type of person. But it's all of us. I think I've spent this whole year being scared; scared about Baby, scared about my health, my familys health, work, friends, the future. This has happened ever since we lost our cousin 2 years ago. It's just left me in constant fear about life and how easily it can be snatched away.
I hate hearing about all these good, amazing people getting sick. Not because it bores me or because I don't want to listen but because why.....I know there's no answer but being healthy shouldn't be too much to ask.
I'm so confident and brash, yet in this area I'm a wreck. It's a wierd thing - you can be happy with everything you've got and yet that makes you scared because there's more to lose.
I feel so isolated today.