Comments | trixie_river: I am officially the worst person ever

trixie_river

I am officially the worst person ever

Sep 26, 2005 01:53

I've had some troubling thoughts lately that i absolutely hate myself for having. It's one of those issues that resides in the back of my mind, but somehow always pushes itself up to center stage at night when im trying to sleep ( Read more... )

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junni_bunni September 26 2005, 09:20:50 UTC

you are not a terrible person nikki; i love you and everyone has times where they question their value. i'm sure you will see when you need to that everyone around you loves you and choose a life without you in it.
p.s. i would totally dd for you ;)

junni_bunni September 26 2005, 09:42:02 UTC

i miss you. you need to stop being so far away. i'd like that.

cptn_dantastic September 27 2005, 18:44:50 UTC

Nikki- I guess I'm not quite sure what to say. You acknowledge that most of this is in your head, and yet it still bothers you.

Stop calling yourself a terrible person. It hurts me to read that. You are a beautiful person. If anyone is harboring any negative feelings about you, it's because they're a fool- probably a jealous fool. And if you feel out of touch or out of place because of your "perfect" life, remember what I told you- You're always a comfort to me. You're stable, collected, insightful- Your "perfect life" gives me something to admire and take some comfort in. You say you feel like you can't help people with their problems because they don't think you can relate to them. First, let me say that no one has helped me so much with personal issues as you. Second, consider that most girls talk to other girls when they want symnpathy, not for advice or counseling. No matter how sympathetic you are, some people just wont be able to get over the fact that you don't share their problems. If they're really your friends ( ... )

game_freak_333 September 27 2005, 18:47:30 UTC

sweetheart, you are the best person I know. Everybody has these thoughts. The only difference is that you're posting it on your journal instead of starting fights about it like most people would. You are NOT a bad person, you are NOT selfish, you ARE a loser, but for completely difference reasons. I love you more then anything in the world, which I wouldn't say if you were a bad person. You have such a good life because you make it good. Everything doesn't just fall into place, you make it. Don't ever doubt yourself, because you can do anything.

anonymous September 27 2005, 19:41:41 UTC

nikki, although i can understand your feelings because everybody has them (just maybe doesnt have the guts to talk about them)... but i just want you to know that you personify everything i want to be. seriously, if youre looking for your dysfunctional half, youve found it (thats me, i mean), but i WISh i could have everything wonderful that you do have, and yet i still tell you everything, even when it is probably best unshared (like what my armpits smell like, or which underwear im wearing).... i wait for you to come home when youre gone for the weekend... or the day.... or from work...or the gym..... i even pretend to have red hairs on my head. (in the light i DO!), you probably know more about me than anyone i know. i love u, and as soon as i get my boot off, im driving u somewhere, ill be the DD even if its just bc were gonna go eat soooo much icecream that it may not be safe for you to drive. (and i know its not a huge grand gesture, im usually more quiet and private about them, but i dont draw pi for just anyone ;) or take our ( ... )

So Im a little slow... anonymous October 16 2005, 09:39:56 UTC

Nikki!
I know this is like weeks after the post cause Im a bad livejournal checker, but I wanted to post too, cause well, you are awesome! Night is a bad time for me as well, and I constantly think, "what if my friends dont really like me?", "would it matter if I was gone?". And when I was gone last spring, there were times that I was so lonely and thought that no one cared at all that I was gone. I fee like I missed a lot in that time, and Im really glad I had friends to come back to, but even now I still feel left out cause I missed so much time and I worry. But I always reassure myself that I am loved, you and Jess are great friends, even though I dont see you two as much as Id like to. So just know that you are not alone in feeling discluded and alone, and you have me as a friend forever!

Mark