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A Blast from the Past.
Oh shit.
He had tried so hard to keep this from happening, but his damned McCoy luck held out as always. He could never catch a break it seemed.
"Hey there Bones."
He grimaced. Most people weren't scared when they met their exes. But when your ex was James T. Kirk: most wanted man in the States, scared was an understatement.
"Hello Jim." He swallowed thickly, already planning ways to escape this situation. He wouldn't be hurt now; there were too many people in the area. But he had to make sure that Jim didn't find out any details of his life.
"Come on Bones. You and I both know that you're much better at greetings than that. Why I remember when I came home after three weeks that you-"
"That was when I thought I knew you. I bared my heart and soul to you, and you kept the most important part of your life away from me."
Jim's eyes hardened. "Bullshit. I told you about what happened when I was born, my childhood, people who I've lost. I just omitted a part of my life that wasn't that important. When I was with you, I never changed who I was. I've always been the same man who loved you."
"Shut up. I found out when I decided that I wanted to try a life in the States again. What if I had never decided to come back to the States? What if I had decided to stay on in Berlin for the rest of my life? Would you have told me?"
Jim's uncomfortable stance was all the answer that he needed. He sighed. It was then that he realized that he wasn't angry at Jim because he was a crime lord. Scared yes, scared for his life. But not angry. No, he was angry because Jim lied and would have kept lying to him.
He had been lied to all his life. From his wife, to his colleagues, to his supposedly 'best friend', and finally by the man who he loved with such an intensity that it scared him to death. No, he was angry because Jim had lied.
He tugged on his cuff and straightened out his suit. "That's what I thought. I won't tell anyone you're here Jim, but don't ever try to come and find me again."
For probably the first time in his life, Jim looked confused. "Wha-?"
"I loved you, and you lied to me. I told you everything in my life, not matter how dark and broken it was. And you couldn't bring yourself to do the same."
"I would've lost you."
"Yeah, you would've. But you know what the sad part is, if you hadn't lied to me, if you had been upfront with me, I probably would have come back to you eventually. Hell, just because we broke up doesn't mean that I ever stopped loving you."
Jim gaped like a fish out of water.
"But that's just the problem. I still love you, I love you so much that it scares the hell out of me. But I won't let you hurt me again. I have a new life now, a life with my daughter. I'm practicing again and things have been going really well. I'm not about to fuck that up."
"Bones," Jim started.
"No Jim. We are through. Maybe one day, I'll stop hurting enough to look at you as a friend again, but that day is not today."
Jim's face took a desperate tone. "Bones please, I came back, I risked everything to see you. What can I do to make you believe me?"
"You can't do anything Jim. These kinds of things take time. Go back to Europe. If I'm ever ready, I still have your number. I haven't deleted it for some insane reason."
Jim looked ready to say something, but he thought better of it and shut him mouth. He nodded solemnly. "I'll wait for you Bones. No matter how long it takes."
Leonard gave him a weak smile. "We'll see."
Oh shit.
He had tried so hard to keep this from happening, but his damned McCoy luck held out as always. He could never catch a break it seemed.
"Hey there Bones."
He grimaced. Most people weren't scared when they met their exes. But when your ex was James T. Kirk: most wanted man in the States, scared was an understatement.
"Hello Jim." He swallowed thickly, already planning ways to escape this situation. He wouldn't be hurt now; there were too many people in the area. But he had to make sure that Jim didn't find out any details of his life.
"Come on Bones. You and I both know that you're much better at greetings than that. Why I remember when I came home after three weeks that you-"
"That was when I thought I knew you. I bared my heart and soul to you, and you kept the most important part of your life away from me."
Jim's eyes hardened. "Bullshit. I told you about what happened when I was born, my childhood, people who I've lost. I just omitted a part of my life that wasn't that important. When I was with you, I never changed who I was. I've always been the same man who loved you."
"Shut up. I found out when I decided that I wanted to try a life in the States again. What if I had never decided to come back to the States? What if I had decided to stay on in Berlin for the rest of my life? Would you have told me?"
Jim's uncomfortable stance was all the answer that he needed. He sighed. It was then that he realized that he wasn't angry at Jim because he was a crime lord. Scared yes, scared for his life. But not angry. No, he was angry because Jim lied and would have kept lying to him.
He had been lied to all his life. From his wife, to his colleagues, to his supposedly 'best friend', and finally by the man who he loved with such an intensity that it scared him to death. No, he was angry because Jim had lied.
He tugged on his cuff and straightened out his suit. "That's what I thought. I won't tell anyone you're here Jim, but don't ever try to come and find me again."
For probably the first time in his life, Jim looked confused. "Wha-?"
"I loved you, and you lied to me. I told you everything in my life, not matter how dark and broken it was. And you couldn't bring yourself to do the same."
"I would've lost you."
"Yeah, you would've. But you know what the sad part is, if you hadn't lied to me, if you had been upfront with me, I probably would have come back to you eventually. Hell, just because we broke up doesn't mean that I ever stopped loving you."
Jim gaped like a fish out of water.
"But that's just the problem. I still love you, I love you so much that it scares the hell out of me. But I won't let you hurt me again. I have a new life now, a life with my daughter. I'm practicing again and things have been going really well. I'm not about to fuck that up."
"Bones," Jim started.
"No Jim. We are through. Maybe one day, I'll stop hurting enough to look at you as a friend again, but that day is not today."
Jim's face took a desperate tone. "Bones please, I came back, I risked everything to see you. What can I do to make you believe me?"
"You can't do anything Jim. These kinds of things take time. Go back to Europe. If I'm ever ready, I still have your number. I haven't deleted it for some insane reason."
Jim looked ready to say something, but he thought better of it and shut him mouth. He nodded solemnly. "I'll wait for you Bones. No matter how long it takes."
Leonard gave him a weak smile. "We'll see."