THG fic: "Spin Control" [19/24]

[trovia]

Title: Spin Control
Pairings: Finnick/Haymitch, Kat/Peeta
Characters: Finnick, Haymitch, Chaff, Peeta, Gale, Kat; plus appearances by Mags, Johanna, Caesar Flickerman, President Snow, Effie, Claudius Templesmith, Beetee, Prim, Thresh, Rue, District Twelve ensemble and various OC
Rating: adult
Warnings: forced prostitution & non-con; people dealing

Comments

You definitely get your Finnick Odair Angst Award

[roguedemon]

OMG yes, this is what I was waiting for. MARRY ME.

Re: You definitely get your Finnick Odair Angst Award

[trovia]

HEE!

Now if I'd known the Odair award consists of a marriage proposal... :D

[roguedemon]

Well OF COURSE it does. That's what Finnick Odair fandom is all about, sweet, sweet romance. :D Gah, I've just looked at this fandom enough to make me want to stab myself

[trovia]

Gah, I've just looked at this fandom enough to make me want to stab myself.

Hee! Tumblr breaks the best man's faith.

So, I have too many thoughts hereLike Finnick! :D Bring them all on

[roguedemon]

I checked out AO3 and was surprised that you didn't get more comments. I think you finally did it...You broke the fandom. ;) Seriously, I think that this chapter was really crucial -- it was a beautiful payoff from all the conflict Finnick has been struggling with since the very first chapter. A comment from AO3 comparing Finnnick to a child seeking comfort clarified something I was thinking abut here. A part of Finnick was frozen at 14, and in this chapter his traumatized inner child is finally breaking through. It was very telling that Haymitch reverted to calling him "kid" at that moment, and Finnick got that on some level.

Something weird had happened inside of him, breaking open some kind of dam that he hadn’t known was there. Hearing himself say those obvious words - of course, I cry, they hurt me - had unlocked something that maybe didn’t even have to do with the dreams and the sex. Or maybe it had everything to do with it, and he couldn’t even attach a specific feeling to it. It just made tears pouring out. He threatened to

[trovia]

Yeah, I was a little sad that the chapter didn't get a lot of comments. It might have gotten a little too complex to write commentary on it easily. :-/

I picture that first encounter with a client as really brain-breaking and traumatizing for poor Finnick, who wouldn't have had the first idea how to handle it, just feeling overpowered by the entire situation, never mind that woman. (I doubt he had a lot of time to mentally prepare himself. I really don't think even Mags saw it coming that early.) And then, he immediately got the mixed signals of "this is hurting me" and "everybody is nice to me." He would have developed this idea of himself as a powerful killer being complicit in the abuse as a coping mechanism. I think it was awful and terrible in the first year and he couldn't cope with that feeling. The thing that gets him crying is this idea of "of course I cry in my dreams, because they hurt me" because he's understood that he is being hurt and therefore he should be crying. He'd very much prefer at this point actually being

[roguedemon]

Oh, yeah, and sorry for the fucked up italics :-p

[seta_suzume]

Heavy stuff!
Very interesting.

Aaaah, Cinna and Portia, yes, I thought their names were on the way to turning up here...

[trovia]

Thank you!

The stylists are all accounted for. Off we can go to the 74th Hunger Games. :D

[seta_suzume]

You're welcome!

Aaaaah, I feel that's both good and bad! XD;

[trovia]

You're not wrong. :D