What to do what to do!

[trubledgurl205]

So i go to gadsden (home town) today to go check on my grandfather. he is not doing well and i have a bad feeling he is going to die soon and im not sure if i can take losing another grandparent. I just dont think that i can make it. i practically just gave up hope when my grandmother past a year ago. i even thought of suicide cause i just felt

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[anonymous]

I'm sorry that I didn't comment on this earlier but I know where you are coming from with your box and I have my own ways of keeping my memories alive but those persons that have gone before me would have never wanted me to dwell on their memory not saying forget them but let me life be controlled by that. And you try so hard not to get close is hurting you so much and I see that wheter you believe it or not and it hurts me but i have not left you and neither will your friends and neither will your family for that matter because they are always there watching over you your grandmother, and delete this if I'm being offensive, is keeping you safe looking down from heaven telling God "watch over my grandbaby" why didn't you have that accident that night?... but yea we had our problems but that's done I'm here now and even though they are leaving your seniors are just a phone call away.
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[trubledgurl205]

thanks i know she is there watching over me but youve got to understand that i have lost so much in my lifetime that it is hard for me to let go of her or anyone else who has passed in my life. i think about her and a lot of other people everyday. im tryin to get over it but its not as easy as u make it seem. it doesnt control my life it just reminds me of them and thats what keeps me alive. for now