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Mar 01, 2009 14:25


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I realized today that I’ve been in Soeldei for longer than I was out on the journey to collect the Centurions’ cores. It’s strange, to think that. So much happened in those months, and I think the first time anything dangerous has happened here has been the hurricane. But then there are the pirates now…

I wonder how everyone’s been. I bet Lloyd’s back on his journey to gather Exspheres by now, and his friend with him. All of his other friends must be busy with what they were doing before Marta and I met up with them, too. But Marta is still in prison for a few more years, and Richter…Richter is still helping to guard the door. And I guess Tenebrae’s gone back there too, now that I’m here and he can’t really keep Marta company.

How would Tenebrae and Richter get along together? Actually, Aqua is there too, come to think of it. I wonder if they’re actually working together now. That’s a strange thought. Even if they were, they’d probably be at each other’s throats.

If all that’s true, I feel sorry for Richter.

You know, thinking about it now…

[A few calculations are done in the margins around these paragraphs, with a couple things scratched out because it’s not that easy to do calendar math.]

It’ll be one year since the Blood Purge in a little over a month. Or, well, the equivalent of a year, since it was a different time of year when I came here. (Time doesn’t pass differently between home and Soeldei, does it? I’m not going to try thinking about that too hard.) I wish I could be in Palmacosta for that. Maybe I could pay respects to the real Emil and his family. I owe them a lot.

Maybe I should go.

I can’t go back right away yet. There’s still the pirates here, and as long as they’re causing trouble I won’t abandon a city that needs help. But once that’s over, could I go back?

I came to Soeldei because my heart wasn’t in what I was doing, and now I believe that if I return I can do that. I’ve always known I will return someday, because my friends there mean too much for me to leave them forever. I’ve made friends here, valuable friends, but I can’t stay in Soeldei forever. I want to help bring acceptance to Sylvarant and Tethe’alla, and to live the life Aster, Emil, and everybody else I owe my life to never got to have. And because I’m Ratatosk, it’s my duty to help protect my world and I can't do that here.

I’ve stayed here long enough. I feel ready to go back home, once all this is settled. I know it’s possible, because others have done the same. So once I know Soeldei is safe, I’ll start saying my goodbyes. I hope the people here continue to have the same kind of peace they gave me after I’ve left.
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OOC edit, please pretend this was there the whole time: Does anybody know if it's possible to write home, or write back from home?

reminiscence, decisions, brief hiatus in the pirate saga, totally not leading up to something, reflection

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