i suppose sometimes the best coping mechanism
is complete
Detatchment.

she spirals around my legs as her thoughts are only to find a comfortable spot on my body to lay her white little body. she licks my hand as though she knew i needed a kiss from her, and, although she cannot be aware of this, i am jealous that life, her little doggy life, is so simple.

It would be amazing to me to find something that someone truely meant, to say the exact words you had in mind, and also be able to excecute the difficult task of Meaning It.

he swims in my mind

as if his entire body
becomes
tiny retractable fins.

floating,as he's foaming
against me.

i sigh and then, i close my eyes,........

he makes his way down through my mouth,

and rest's on it's shore, inches
away,...

he is close,

to my lips.

listening to aphex twin gives me goosebumps.
i've been swamped in homework that is too interesting to me, causing me to write increadibly lengthy papers. i need to be a little more disinterested. my roomates gave me a new dresser. =) my little house is waiting for Kyle and I. i still have goosebumps.

my dearest Kyle the husband, it is 6:08am and you are sleeping peacefully on our bed...your migraine is hurting your eyes so i will turn off the lights....
i'll kiss you forehead and say adiu....
off to work i go=)

i thought about you today. i remembered the long conversations about everything and more importantly nothing at all. i find it difficult to try and recapture the past. everything seems too far away to me; seperated and opposite. i can't always remember who i was, but always who i wanted to be at the time. i cannot imagine life without knowing you, ( Read more... )

he moves in his sleep, stretching his torso along the side of my body ( Read more... )

i wish i could stomach the hurt
but it just festers inside until
i am full of regret
regret up to my hips
remembering the mistake i made again
when i thought you were truely good for me
what destruction can you
achieve?
did you want me to kill over?

its different here, in the presence of a married man ( Read more... )