i have a show in modesto on the 30th...(nervouse me)...ill be trembling on stage ( Read more... )

sometimes truth is hard to see.
other times it falls into your vision on accident.
tonight it was meant to be known

i wish i knew what to do with all my insecurities.
i would be a genious if i could figure that out.

its strange how you can imagine what it is you want but cannot translate that ability with words or with paint. i have this dilema constantly. its staarting to make me mad.

so alone again.

i seem to think often on the times i couldnt share with my sister. the years im afraid will go by,and ill always wonder if they would have been better spent, had she been here too ( Read more... )

i seem to be in serious ( Read more... )

tonight is beautiful
and tragic with the news
the headlines depicted the story in full
the collumns rang true
the screaming violence of a world unknown
visually animated by
one
phone call

predictedly so,

shes doing not what shes told

but whateveryone else
is doing

im not really standing on the edge of a cliff
im not really drowning in a sea of tears
it is only imaginary
it is
an overexagerated visual effect
to descibe the
severity of what i feel
but i dont plan on making it real
its simply
a visual
effect
to allow people
to imagine
the severity
of what i
am capable of
feeling

the notes ascend like the times we ( Read more... )