You tell me part two
Christian: well, you know what you want
1:19 AM the question is, do you have the guts to go for it?
me: no
1:20 AM because the value of whatever happens between us probably won't match the value of what i've been having
it's like ripping myself off
and yet i feel such a desire to do it
Christian: while I'm ripping your dress off
me: not helping
Christian: not designed to
1:21 AM me: only meant to strengthen your case
but you have nothing to lose
Christian: oh, like my job
me: whereas i do
1:22 AM Christian: my boss would love any reason he can find to fire me
hates my guts
me: that's sad, my boss loves me
can't you just... lock the door?
Christian: we all have keys to each other's doors....
1:23 AM me: can't you just... stay late?
Christian: yes, staying late is an option
me: or do some people live in their offices?
Christian: grad students
but they don't have keys to my office
me: and besides that, grad students don't care
1:24 AM Christian: possibly
me: too busy to care
no, theoretically we could get away with it
1:25 AM Christian: i once fucked music phd student in her office while the dean was making copies on the other side of the door
me: very nice
Christian: indeed
1:26 AM me: i'm very good at being quiet
years of practice
Christian: i like loud, but under the circumstances...
1:27 AM me: i do too
i'm loud when i have the freedom to be
Christian: nice
1:28 AM me: oh, dash it all.
this is so not worth it.
1:29 AM Christian: go om
on
me: i should go back to my normal life
Christian: keep telling yourself
1:30 AM me: i should just finish studying and ace my exams tomorrow, then go to sleep when i get home and wake up on friday to a call from my significant other asking if i want to go get breakfast
Christian: yes that is definitely what you should do
1:31 AM me: if there were any reasonable people awake at this hour i would call them and have them talk me out of this.
Christian: yes that is definitely what you should do
1:32 AM me: now you sound like a robot
Christian: yes that is definitely what I sound like
1:33 AM me: what would we have, anyway?
1:34 AM Christian: nothing
me: obviously not a relationsihp
Christian: other than good sex and good conversation
you'd be free to date
1:35 AM we'd work our way through the 100-places-to-fuck list
1:36 AM so, we'd have nothing of value
me: some of those places sound highly improbable or inaccessible
Christian: i've always wanted to do a department store dressing room
and an airplane
1:37 AM me: come to think of it, i don't even know what your sexual interests are besides the obvious "young women" staple
Christian: pretty vanilla
1:38 AM definitely location is interesting
me: yes, beds get boring
1:39 AM Christian: i have this sheep skin rug in front of my fireplace that i've never been able to put to use
too fucking hot in AZ to light a fire
sigh
me: in winter perhaps
Christian: fucking global warming
me: at least this winter perhaps
1:40 AM Christian: and, other than older scholarly men, what do you prefer, dear?
1:41 AM me: a little bit of pain
just a little
Christian: spanking?
me: yes
Christian: amazing how common of a request that is
me: biting, but only certain places
some places bruise too easily
1:42 AM dunno, in perspective it feels somewhat dull
1:43 AM Christian: what does?
me: the range of things i've tried
Christian: you're 19!
me: oh i suppose it
's appropriate here
1:47 AM yet the "interesting" things all seem like unappealing things
1:48 AM Christian: well see what you can train your train-boy to do when he comes home
1:49 AM me: perhaps.
1:50 AM if i still feel this way later, we'll see.
Christian: you wrote to me for a reason
1:51 AM me: yes, but i don't have to give way to all my impulses
1:53 AM i need to think about what i'm doing
1:55 AM i think you're interested in me for what i represent as well
1:56 AM not necessarily me in particular
i don't think you'd pick me in a lineup of 20 girls
1:57 AM Christian: i like them smart and young
you're both
you've never met me either
to you, i'm a title with an office
me: yes, i know that
1:58 AM we aren't very much to each other at this point
at least not personally
1:59 AM Christian: well, i guess that's the point
actually, the real point here is whether you are happy in your relationship or not
if you're not, you should seek out something else
not necessarily me
2:00 AM me: yes, i know
2:01 AM as i said, i need to think about things.
Christian: you do that
2:02 AM 271-4960
2:03 AM me: you may hear from me at some point, i can't say when exactly.
Christian: you can alwaus text me in class
like all good students
me: i rarely text in class. in fact, i sit in the front row in all my classes
2:04 AM until i know what i'm doing i'm going to try not to talk to you or think about you
Christian: ok
2:05 AM me: i am going to live my normal life and avoid the gould-simpson building like it's haunted
Christian: you might not be real anyway
http://xkcd.com/632/
night
2:06 AM bye
me: good night
1:19 AM the question is, do you have the guts to go for it?
me: no
1:20 AM because the value of whatever happens between us probably won't match the value of what i've been having
it's like ripping myself off
and yet i feel such a desire to do it
Christian: while I'm ripping your dress off
me: not helping
Christian: not designed to
1:21 AM me: only meant to strengthen your case
but you have nothing to lose
Christian: oh, like my job
me: whereas i do
1:22 AM Christian: my boss would love any reason he can find to fire me
hates my guts
me: that's sad, my boss loves me
can't you just... lock the door?
Christian: we all have keys to each other's doors....
1:23 AM me: can't you just... stay late?
Christian: yes, staying late is an option
me: or do some people live in their offices?
Christian: grad students
but they don't have keys to my office
me: and besides that, grad students don't care
1:24 AM Christian: possibly
me: too busy to care
no, theoretically we could get away with it
1:25 AM Christian: i once fucked music phd student in her office while the dean was making copies on the other side of the door
me: very nice
Christian: indeed
1:26 AM me: i'm very good at being quiet
years of practice
Christian: i like loud, but under the circumstances...
1:27 AM me: i do too
i'm loud when i have the freedom to be
Christian: nice
1:28 AM me: oh, dash it all.
this is so not worth it.
1:29 AM Christian: go om
on
me: i should go back to my normal life
Christian: keep telling yourself
1:30 AM me: i should just finish studying and ace my exams tomorrow, then go to sleep when i get home and wake up on friday to a call from my significant other asking if i want to go get breakfast
Christian: yes that is definitely what you should do
1:31 AM me: if there were any reasonable people awake at this hour i would call them and have them talk me out of this.
Christian: yes that is definitely what you should do
1:32 AM me: now you sound like a robot
Christian: yes that is definitely what I sound like
1:33 AM me: what would we have, anyway?
1:34 AM Christian: nothing
me: obviously not a relationsihp
Christian: other than good sex and good conversation
you'd be free to date
1:35 AM we'd work our way through the 100-places-to-fuck list
1:36 AM so, we'd have nothing of value
me: some of those places sound highly improbable or inaccessible
Christian: i've always wanted to do a department store dressing room
and an airplane
1:37 AM me: come to think of it, i don't even know what your sexual interests are besides the obvious "young women" staple
Christian: pretty vanilla
1:38 AM definitely location is interesting
me: yes, beds get boring
1:39 AM Christian: i have this sheep skin rug in front of my fireplace that i've never been able to put to use
too fucking hot in AZ to light a fire
sigh
me: in winter perhaps
Christian: fucking global warming
me: at least this winter perhaps
1:40 AM Christian: and, other than older scholarly men, what do you prefer, dear?
1:41 AM me: a little bit of pain
just a little
Christian: spanking?
me: yes
Christian: amazing how common of a request that is
me: biting, but only certain places
some places bruise too easily
1:42 AM dunno, in perspective it feels somewhat dull
1:43 AM Christian: what does?
me: the range of things i've tried
Christian: you're 19!
me: oh i suppose it
's appropriate here
1:47 AM yet the "interesting" things all seem like unappealing things
1:48 AM Christian: well see what you can train your train-boy to do when he comes home
1:49 AM me: perhaps.
1:50 AM if i still feel this way later, we'll see.
Christian: you wrote to me for a reason
1:51 AM me: yes, but i don't have to give way to all my impulses
1:53 AM i need to think about what i'm doing
1:55 AM i think you're interested in me for what i represent as well
1:56 AM not necessarily me in particular
i don't think you'd pick me in a lineup of 20 girls
1:57 AM Christian: i like them smart and young
you're both
you've never met me either
to you, i'm a title with an office
me: yes, i know that
1:58 AM we aren't very much to each other at this point
at least not personally
1:59 AM Christian: well, i guess that's the point
actually, the real point here is whether you are happy in your relationship or not
if you're not, you should seek out something else
not necessarily me
2:00 AM me: yes, i know
2:01 AM as i said, i need to think about things.
Christian: you do that
2:02 AM 271-4960
2:03 AM me: you may hear from me at some point, i can't say when exactly.
Christian: you can alwaus text me in class
like all good students
me: i rarely text in class. in fact, i sit in the front row in all my classes
2:04 AM until i know what i'm doing i'm going to try not to talk to you or think about you
Christian: ok
2:05 AM me: i am going to live my normal life and avoid the gould-simpson building like it's haunted
Christian: you might not be real anyway
http://xkcd.com/632/
night
2:06 AM bye
me: good night