I wonder why I bothered the last four days i n the hospital have given me a whole new perspective on life and Ive never been so scared that I was gunna die thank goodness Larry and Jose and Cyndi were there at all times trying to make sure I was fine I didnt want anyone to know I was sick cause I thought Id be better by myself but if they didnt ( Read more... )

but having so much to say...
Im done with white boys.
pshhhh Danny Lloyd and I are assholes.

Dark allies alone with boys and down town and all the drama wow I feel like IM 13 again yay NOT.

teen drinking is very very bad I got a fake I.D. tho.

Yet we are still drunk every night together....I wish it would happen.

God you're so lovely yes you are.
You came here to save me didn't you.
You came here to teach me.
And I'm gonna try to teach you.
Know you're everything to me.
Know you have to learn and try.
Please don't fear to lose me.
You know I have those same fears too.
God you're so lovely yeah ( Read more... )

Through the fire, to the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you, I'd gladly risk it all
Through the fire, through whatever come what may
For a chance at loving you, I'd take it all away
Right down through the wire, even through the fire
...true story.

Laughing with your pretty mouth 
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lovers ( Read more... )

So I managed to get myself caught in a pickle again cause there is this guy and he's perfect but he's got a gf and everyone just likes to fuck with my little head.
and we all get shot in the head with a .45
...the end.

one love

I wonder if a shake comin with them fries,
If so baby can i get em super sized,

Ive been with Courtney A LOT it makes me smile...kinda like the old days with a twist...I like the feeling
Kerri and I are a couple and we dont act like it but whateve...

I had a weird morning smoking alone in Courtneys room I understand why she wont listen to taking back ( Read more... )

I think suicide is a natural,
but fighting is an instinct, and
change is a must.

I get lonly when its just me in my house and my sisters arent here I dont know why, they mean the world to me, and I feel like Ive let them down .

This entry means nothing Ive just had a weeks and Im confused and full of emtions I cant give names to and Im helpless at the ( Read more... )

SO everything that could go wrong did and I dont know what to do.

My mom is talking about arizona again but just her moving back its kinda weird what would I do without my mom.

Movies tomorrow its gunna be weird I havent see these biddies in mad long.

Man-i-cal Dis-iples

This is GOD!

Its a hard life working the 9 ta 5 I cant wait until I finally die.
I truely stressed out my check never amount so on my day off Im out slanging an oz
The pine crack and its back to the house my girl whips her tits out but Im so miserable I bitch out dissapointed she starts running lips I flip and aim my gun to her ribs ( Read more... )

I have a plane...It probably wont work but its worth a try.

Im kinda fucking stuck

&I miss Joshua!