why the fuck can't i just let them all go? tell them all what i should be, and ignore that fucking urge to chase and to get it. because now i have them, and i cant do that. stop being a bad person, stop. or not, just play and continue, its alright if you dont get caught right? yea? maybe. this should be where i say ill do the right thing and just ( Read more... )

stole this from ariel.....too stressed to really update....

If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you....

its snowing! i was happy when i first saw this but then thought it over and now, it just makes me anxious. snow can only disappoint around here because it always stops and goes a few days later. for awhile its nice, but each day it disappears more making people subtly more depressed than the day before. thats what it does to me atleast. so now i ( Read more... )

ive been at school so much this week. i dont really want to be here but i dont really want to go home. i feel like im in limbo ( Read more... )

I’ll be coming home ( Read more... )

got a mix from ariel on monday, and a mix from ry today. im so happy. i have the best of all music. weve got the indie-ish stuff, and the sceamo-ish stuff. ah, purrrrfect. swimming went well yesterday i guess. i had only one race and it was the 400 free relay. so thats 4 laps for me. and i cant do that very well at all. amanda said i was doing well ( Read more... )

I'm coming out of my cage ( Read more... )

ah, i am not emotionally attatched or attracted to anyone right now. its so sad, i feel so empty. i know, cliched, but its true. i mean, maybe if i saw some people more often i would feel differently. but unfortunately i dont. and to tell you the truth im getting bored which means im gonna start playing games, which means nothing good for people. ( Read more... )

im becoming a post whore ( Read more... )

wow, been up to so much lately. went to pittsburgh for thanksgiving to see my cousin play football at Pitt. vs WVU. but the dumbass got himself hit in the head with a beer bottle and has 12 staples in his head. so he didnt even play. so, we sat in the cold for like 5 hours. it was windy and snowy, and the fans were the most obnoxious ever. but ( Read more... )