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Right.. so i just got fired, anyone know of an open position for a charming young lad such as myself?

If we convinced the FDA to rename heroin to "Jesus" heroin addicts would be going to hell.

Lol at "Taking the lord's name in 'vein.'"

So, i typed a whole couple pages on how I feel, but that all sounded emo, and I thought I'd sum up.

When you are stripped down to nothing, that's the only time you KNOW what you are.

Fuck pancakes.

So, today, i actually said aloud "Oh, I'll ask for more hours" Seriously, Wtf is happening to my brain?

Is there something about me, that I just attract petite, redheaded manson freaks?

Do you have any idea how amazing it is that I can stop hurting for days, but the simple somebody mentioning that Katrina did this or that can hit me like a hammer?

Honestly, i've been depressed before... but I've never felt this worthless. It's... hard to describe. and I fucking hate it.

So, I believe I have a job. well, i signed and filled out W-4s, so I probably do.. Which means i can relax... I tried, and you know what i learned? after two y ears of virtual marriage, i'm horrible at relaxing alone... I can't, It's just like TRYING to be emo. I sit still, and try to meditate.. Sigh.

Fucking clownshoes.

I feel queasy, my cell phone is off. that means the 3000 places i've applied to recently can't call me. Fuck it. I'm just gonna go get a job as a security guard.

Okay, listen closwely. I. Will do .
Anything
For.
A.
Job.