Update?
Here I am, 6.5 weeks in to my third semester here. I love Scranton, but I miss summer. It's less than 60 degrees out, I'm still wearing flip flops and t-shirts so I don't have to believe it. I have so so so much to be thankful for here, so much that has changed me even in this short time here.
I love my quad. Liz and Hailey are incredible, they're easily two of the best people I've ever met and I know we'll stay close. Next year is going to be amazing -- the three of us living together at 410 Clay Third Floor. We have the TOP FLOOR of a house, with three huge bedrooms, a living room, a kitchen and 1 and a half bathrooms. And a deck. WE HAVE A DECK. Ohhh so many blunts up there. I'm so so excited.
Maggie is my best friend. I miss living with Laurel though, I feel like I got a lot more accomplished with her because we weren't nearly as close as me and Maggie are. Idk, I miss her.
I absolutely adore Kathleen, Kelly and Michelle. I'm so glad that K&K live next door because they're so much freakin' fun. Michelley gets pretty ridiculous sometimes when she gets in her bad moods.. but we deal. I've loved going out with them lately cause we really do always have so much freakin' fun.
Nows the stupid sappy shit that I've avoided. Ted. Ah. I'm dating a ginger. An awesome one, at that. And a lax bro. Who isn't an asshole. He might be the sweetest guy I've ever been with. He says the nicest things, and actually means them. He'll come over just to visit and cuddle. We've napped together. Had sleepovers. Been together at 2pm. 2am. Anytime. I am in love with when he comes over because he'll literally just hold me for hours. I even said to him the other night, "I know your back is hurting, you don't have to hold me like this you know, it's not a big deal" and he's replied "I want to hold you. You in my arms is all my back needs right now so close your eyes please".
I don't know what is going to happen with us next semester, and to be honest I've been thinking a lot about it. No matter how much I think about it, it doesn't make it any easier. He and I seriously need to talk about it, but neither of us want to at all. Meeting him, and making all these incredible friends has made me hesitant about going- but I need to go. God granted that I'm accepted into the program (fingers crossed.) I'm curious as to whether or not we will stay together if I go over there, at the rate our relationship is going, we're to the point where he's mentioned meeting his parents at one of his lacrosse games; coming to visit over Christmas; coming to Vermont with us to Maggie's house, even next summer. I know it's only been mentioned but still, to me it means something. I've "introduced him" to everyone from home that are in my pictures. I've talked to him about my sister, about why I want to teach, about music, and sports, and he's told me about his family and about Cape Cod.
I can't believe I've found myself in a position like this. What's going on with Ted and I is the most balanced situation I've been in with a guy. I don't care that the entire lacrosse team has known from the very beginning what was going on with us. I don't care that he makes fun of me for my sunglasses, for bad movie choices, blacking out, getting injured. I don't care that he laughs at me -- a lot. I like that he lets me wear his clothes no matter how ridiculous I look. I love that he comments on how he can smell me on his bed or on him after sleeping over. He's seen me looking like complete garbage, he gets really lovey when he's high, he's a very respectful bed partner who doesn't hog the covers or blankets. And frankly, I look forward to seeing him and even more to being with him. This weekend is our first like.. test of distance for a decent period of time.
Fall break is this weekend. I'm going to Boston to see Cameron, Ethan and Trevor Friday/Saturday until Sunday/Monday. (225 miles from Mr. Edward Pierce Abbot Jr.) Then home to love on my family until Tuesday (120 miles apart) I know its no big deal, like it isn't as if I'm going to hook up with someone else while I'm not at school- its like.. five days. I know I'll miss him. I miss him anytime he isn't within 10 feet of me. What sucks is that this is a crazy busy week for the both of us, so it's going to be hard being able to see each other before hand. I guess we will just have to make the most of it.. and really, its ONLY five days. AH!
On the otherhand, I'm SO SO excited to see the boys. I've missed them so much! It sucks that I couldn't see Cora though, like she and I couldn't go on the same weekend. Ehhh I'll get to see her in 2 weeks from this weekend though. Marianne is bringing me as her date to a wedding out in Philly soooo I get tosee my best friend<3 It's been so freakin' long since we've been together. It'll be blissful that's for sure haah