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There's someting about you
Tears me inside out whenever you're around
And there's someting about you
That makes me fly
You're a heart attack just the kind i like
And there's something about your kiss
Haunting and strange
That makes me feel so good
I forgot how much I enjoyed this song (Mother, We Just Can't Get Enough- New Radicals)
So here it is, the last week in October and there is sleet on the ground. SLEET. Cold, wet, gross, sleet. Ugh. It's gotten unbelieveable here. The weather is absolutely insane. Otherwise, things are going well here. Things with school are good. I'm not going to Greece anymore, but I'm actually okay with it. I have so much to look forward to, and really- I'm OKAY. Things with the girls are good. Things with Ted are good. Halloween is going to be GREAT. I don't have much to be upset about. Besides the fact that this guy John here at school committed suicide on Saturday night. Ugh, I can't even describe how sad things are- so somber. Suicide sucks SO bad I don't even know where to start.
Ted and I are COMFORTABLE now. We had a few rocky days where we ended up having like, formative relationship talks. Such as the one where I kind of asked him to show more effort and take initiative because I was tired of feeling like it was one sided and that he was wasting my time. It ended positively. Then we had another conversation in which we mutually decided that things were progressing reasonably rapidly; a little more than both of us intended to end up with. Neither of us planned on being en-route to dating seriously. But honestly, I think it'll happen at some point- neither of us want it now though. After that, we kind of took a weekend off and slept in our own beds, we were casual for a weekend and by Tuesday things were completely back on track. This past weekend I was out around Philly for the wedding with my mom so I didn't see him all weekend. Weird.
But since I've been back, though, he's been great. Attentive and genuinely trying, I think. Yesterday I made a point to keep kind of distant like not texting or IMing first (how childish, I know) but I actually saw him a lot just randomly, and even walked to class together- and that's BIG hahah. Last night we talked more than we had in a long time, about good things, good nights we had togeher, cracked jokes. Idk. It was such a turn around from me feeling like he was never interested in talking much. I texted him first for the first time all day to say goodnight and to wish him luck doing work and he replied back "sweet dreams laur, maybe tomorrow you'll wanna hang out?" .. effort. that was really all I wanted out of him all along. Today we had such a honest to God great time, however brief it may have been. We laid and cuddled and kissed, laughed and talked about a lot, and he held me tighter than usual. Everything that had been tense, or distant, or at all off had completely just melted away. I couldn't have asked for anything different. He walked me back across the street to Gavigan before he went to class, wrapped me into his raincoat, pulled the hood over both of our heads and kissed me goodbye. The only real "goodbye" kiss I've ever gotten from him. And so this shitty day weather wise, has become absolutely sunny.
HALLOWEEEEEN IS THIS WEEKEND! And I absolutely cannot waaait for it. I'm going to be the Incredibles with Hailey and Liz on Thursday night. Rufio on Friday night and Mario & Luigi on Saturday. Its going to be amazing.
Tears me inside out whenever you're around
And there's someting about you
That makes me fly
You're a heart attack just the kind i like
And there's something about your kiss
Haunting and strange
That makes me feel so good
I forgot how much I enjoyed this song (Mother, We Just Can't Get Enough- New Radicals)
So here it is, the last week in October and there is sleet on the ground. SLEET. Cold, wet, gross, sleet. Ugh. It's gotten unbelieveable here. The weather is absolutely insane. Otherwise, things are going well here. Things with school are good. I'm not going to Greece anymore, but I'm actually okay with it. I have so much to look forward to, and really- I'm OKAY. Things with the girls are good. Things with Ted are good. Halloween is going to be GREAT. I don't have much to be upset about. Besides the fact that this guy John here at school committed suicide on Saturday night. Ugh, I can't even describe how sad things are- so somber. Suicide sucks SO bad I don't even know where to start.
Ted and I are COMFORTABLE now. We had a few rocky days where we ended up having like, formative relationship talks. Such as the one where I kind of asked him to show more effort and take initiative because I was tired of feeling like it was one sided and that he was wasting my time. It ended positively. Then we had another conversation in which we mutually decided that things were progressing reasonably rapidly; a little more than both of us intended to end up with. Neither of us planned on being en-route to dating seriously. But honestly, I think it'll happen at some point- neither of us want it now though. After that, we kind of took a weekend off and slept in our own beds, we were casual for a weekend and by Tuesday things were completely back on track. This past weekend I was out around Philly for the wedding with my mom so I didn't see him all weekend. Weird.
But since I've been back, though, he's been great. Attentive and genuinely trying, I think. Yesterday I made a point to keep kind of distant like not texting or IMing first (how childish, I know) but I actually saw him a lot just randomly, and even walked to class together- and that's BIG hahah. Last night we talked more than we had in a long time, about good things, good nights we had togeher, cracked jokes. Idk. It was such a turn around from me feeling like he was never interested in talking much. I texted him first for the first time all day to say goodnight and to wish him luck doing work and he replied back "sweet dreams laur, maybe tomorrow you'll wanna hang out?" .. effort. that was really all I wanted out of him all along. Today we had such a honest to God great time, however brief it may have been. We laid and cuddled and kissed, laughed and talked about a lot, and he held me tighter than usual. Everything that had been tense, or distant, or at all off had completely just melted away. I couldn't have asked for anything different. He walked me back across the street to Gavigan before he went to class, wrapped me into his raincoat, pulled the hood over both of our heads and kissed me goodbye. The only real "goodbye" kiss I've ever gotten from him. And so this shitty day weather wise, has become absolutely sunny.
HALLOWEEEEEN IS THIS WEEKEND! And I absolutely cannot waaait for it. I'm going to be the Incredibles with Hailey and Liz on Thursday night. Rufio on Friday night and Mario & Luigi on Saturday. Its going to be amazing.