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this is beautiful.<33

i'm not sending it.
it wouldn't change a thing.

When I'm lost without a word to say
When I'm not the most intriguing
Will you stay?

When I've called just to hear you say "Hi,"
Will you find me too needy and walk away?
And I know these are silly questions to ask you
'Cause you've proven to love me far beyond my faults
And I'll hold on to every conversation if it could be our last.

this has ( Read more... )

erase everything positive i've said.
i'm pissed and really disappointed.
but I can't let it show,
I'm so let down but I can't let it show.

be a big girl Lauren,
you're not made of glass,
you won't shatter and break.
not yet.

i'm finished with waiting.
i'm done with wasting.
i really though i had something.

i'm so fucking dumb.

i'm so inpatient.
he keeps me waiting.
i don't like it.
i don't like laying guilt trips either.
but i still pulled one.
ahhhh. i hope he calls just so i have justification.

i'm dumb.
( really dumb )

I was in SUCH a good mood today. I went to bed happy after 3 hours of non stop texting with Mr. Joshua<3 =] So entertaining, soo great. So with the whole sleeping happily and in a good mood, I woke up with that same mindset. Jamie even said it best, "I think this one may turn out positively. In fact I know it will." I'm completely carefree about ( Read more... )

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