The power of Love. I feel like I have been holding the power of LOVE hostage. I dont kow how much sence that makes. This is what i mean. When there is something in my life, like lets say a flower, I love the flower, want to see it grow, it starts growing, then i forget about how much that flower needs me. The power of love that i gave that flower ( Read more... )

My new job keeps me up late. I love it. Its different. I work at a residential dual diagnosis house for women in recovery. Its like im big sister to 9 girls. I can take them out to eat, go to the mall, or park. Where ever.  
Life has totally made a turn around for me though. I would be denying the fact that im not struggling. I am totally off. Thats ( Read more... )

So, I have nothing much to do right now.  I miss my old job. Waitressing. Ive been a waitress since i was 16 yrs old. Its really going to be a pay cut and a lifestyle change for me. The bonus is I get to dress up really cute and proffesional. On the flip side I deal with people's drama continuesly while at work. Which on most days i love to do that ( Read more... )

Geezy louise gas prices are out of control. I am finding myself living out of my car because when i go out of the house i need to have everything with me so when I need something I dont have to go back to the house to get it. Im talking tooth brush extra clothes  shoes. You know. even snacks. Woe its sooo funny because i was driving in jeff and did ( Read more... )

Im not in any hurry nowadays. Yeah. no hurry no worry.

I am a ghost.  am I gone. 
I am not here. So far.
So far to say this much to you. That much that you knew. That much that you knew. 
Cling to the things that are real.  
The echos of the wind in my ear. You are not here. 
The shrill of it all. And so its all there is and it is gone.

So there is so much going on in my life, its amazing. First, who I am today. Amazing. Vs. what everyone thought I would be... everyone coming from statistics. I dont know about anyone else but when the numbers are stacked against you it can feel really overwhelming. As a child the numbers were stacked against me. As an adolescent the numbers were ( Read more... )

These automatic flowers wont do.

Freedom from bondage.
Bondage of what?
Freedom from what bondage there was.

a little conversation inside my head.

Make me laugh I can make you like me.
He always made me laugh.
Making life happen one laugh at a time

Yet it happened to not be funny.

Beakon the weak to prove your strong.
My bones will crumble please dont ( Read more... )

Whenever there is time ( Read more... )

Wishing on stars. How useless. Useless ( Read more... )