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[tryyying]

Sooo I WAS going to post an entry, and I WAS going to do some step work.. but my sponsor and my sponsee sister were out at my sponsor's grandmothers house wayyy too late. We got playing this game "Apples to Apples" and we didn't even notice how fast time went by until it was 4:15am. I felt sooo bad that I stayed out so late.. because Donovan tends

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[kayrcee]

I wish I could make it stop for you...but I can't- I can be there for you though. I know exactly how you feel. And, no- just because you aren't chained to the bed 24/7 doesn't mean you aren't ACTUALLY depressed. It just means you functionally depressed and mainly because you probably don't have the luxory of being in bed all day because you are a mom. Stick with the meds, talk to people, make yourself do things you don't want to...it helps. Glad you are here!

[tryyying]

thankyou. things have gotten a little weirder since then, if you've seen my most recent entry.. but still.. the thought of a whole day in bed is really appealing.. but being that i am basically the only caregiver of my son.. thats impossible. I mean, its POSSIBLE.. but not something I could do to such an amazing little boy.. he needs his mommy.

thanks so much though.. i added you, and i must say I LOVE that little martha stewart cartoon you have up.. i think its the most recent entry. :) it cracked a smile.

[babygoose85]

Having seen a picture of Donovan smiling I can say this, you obviously do a good job of not letting your depression affect him. Otherwise he wouldn't be smiling, babies learn to smile both instinctively as well as by mimicking. Part of being a good mother is worrying about doing a good job, you need to care that you do the best by him. As far as the craving I can't say I've ever craved drugs before but I do at times crave pain to numb myself when I'm really depressed. I can generally control this but I know when I'm getting bad when I let myself slip a little. No you can't expect your baby to give you the hormonal boost you need, that's why you take medication and that's why you stay with your sponsor and taking responsibility for yourself however should give you somewhat of a boost because it means you are succeeding.