I'm always worried I lead the relationship a lot. I don't want to lead the relationship in this. I really don't. I don't want to second guess myself years later and wonder if I wasn't the one pushing what I wanted and not being a part of something.
I want to be the girl, for once, to be swept off my feet rather than the boy calling the shots. It's stupid, it's silly, but.. well.. I want a little romance and not that I have to plan and orchestrate.
I also don't want it to be an.. I dunno.. expected outcome, taken for granted. I want to say "yes" not just.. well.. have it feel like a "may as well".
I'm sucking real bad at expressing this, too, which makes me think even more it's just my fault, just my stupidness, or something.
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I want to be the girl, for once, to be swept off my feet rather than the boy calling the shots. It's stupid, it's silly, but.. well.. I want a little romance and not that I have to plan and orchestrate.
I also don't want it to be an.. I dunno.. expected outcome, taken for granted. I want to say "yes" not just.. well.. have it feel like a "may as well".
I'm sucking real bad at expressing this, too, which makes me think even more it's just my fault, just my stupidness, or something.
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