Shittiest. Weekend. Ever. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want to see anyone. I want to just sit in oblivion for a few years. Or more. I'd talk about it, but I don't want certain people to read it. We need to talk, but I don't think I'll be able to for awhile. I feel really alone right now. I mean, even more so than last year when I ( Read more... )

IT HAPPENED AGAIN!!!I was on the bus, and I heard a kid, who was either a freshman or a sophomore, saying he had no homework this weekend. I jokingly said I hated him (I'm completely swamped). He said, "Oh, are you in 10th grade? Or 9th?" I said calmly that I was a senior, although I was miffed. His eyes widen, and he exclaims, obviously surprised ( Read more... )

As I was walking from Hell to Meisters, I saw Bella in the hall. It's the first time I've seen or talked to her in over a week. I couldn't help it. I glomped her. *sigh* I just can't stay upset. I love her too much. But I think we should talk about the "bubble" thing.

Wow, as if I needed another reason to be depressed. I was reading Bella's journal, and I noticed a few things ( Read more... )

So I've figured out why I've been so damned depressed. It's because this is my last year at highschool, and soon I'll have to leave all my friends. It's not that I'm afraid I will be alone; I know I'll make new friends. But that doesn't change the fact that I won't see the friends I have now except during summer, if that. Well, at least I know why ( Read more... )

Yesterday before lunch I saw Bella and walked her to her class. It's nice to get a few minutes to spend with her here and there, but we definitely need to see more of each other. Then I had lunch with Louise, and seeing the two of them was the best happy medicine I could get. This morning my happiness came in a ball of brown fur. As my mom and I ( Read more... )

Greeaaat weekend. On Friday I reread all the Fullmetal Alchemist chapters I have, which made me feel happy, but I did it when I was supposed to be doing my homework. The next day I'm feeling sluggish and can't focus, and COMPLETELY forgot I was supposed to volunteer with Bella for the Kerry Campaign. I couldn't go. But what's worse is that right ( Read more... )

Hey all. It’s been awhile, huh? I have been incredibly stressed out recently. I have hardly been online, and I can’t remember the last time I was on IRC. Because my medication is being switched around, my hormones are messed up, which affects my ability to do my work-and I have a lot of it. I’ve also been really depressed lately. And I think I am ( Read more... )

Meh, don't want to go to bed yet, and mom isn't home yet to make me, so I'll post something ( Read more... )

From Monday, September 06, morning ( Read more... )