cracked
Title: Cracked
Author: tsukixchan
Prompt #028: Choking
Pairing: Leeteuk/Ryeowook
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: eight ninety four
Genre: Angst
Warning: Character death, violence
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A/N: Huh, this really turned out different from how I first wrote it. It ended up at double the length. xD The plot bunny just took over my head. I don't know what happened with this one, it suddenly turned all angsty on me. :( Also, please forgive any mistakes I made with conditions in this story, I didn't really have the time to develop the disorder more.
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Everyone knows that Leeteuk is the umma of Super Junior. In all honesty, Leeteuk knows it too. And he loves it. He loves his family and he loves taking care of them. But sometimes, he wishes that someone else would just take over.
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Ryeowook is the baby of the family, the eternal magnae. With his short stature and feminine features, everything about him just screams adorable. It's not just the umma who babies Wookie. Everyone else does too, for who can resist the eternal magnae?
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Leeteuk is smiling, as always. He's in the kitchen again, trying to take on the responsibility for all 13 members, even though he really can't cook. The duty just falls to him as the umma to attempt to cook food.
"Umma?" Ryeowook's high voice calls.
"Yes, Wookie?" Leeteuk pokes his head out of the kitchen.
"Umma, do you want me to help cook?" Ryeowook offers. Leeteuk looks positively delighted.
"Thank you, Wook ah!" Leeteuk says gratefully. The relief on his face must be clearly visible, because Ryeowook smiles slightly, telling Leeteuk to go and rest. Ryeowook is one of the few people who can actually cook in Super Junior, and Leeteuk appreciates the help. Ryeowook is just like that, so helpful and happy.
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Leeteuk worries. He worries about everyone except for himself. He always wants to make sure that the members are eating well, sleeping enough, and aren't too stressed out. However, his great efforts to protect the members only drag him deeper into the pit. He himself cannot handle the work needed to take care of 12 other members, but he ignores this, continuing to work.
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"I'm worried about umma," Ryeowook says to Kangin one day, "he's working way too hard."
"Yes," Kangin agrees, "and he's been much quieter lately."
"Do you think he'll be okay?" Ryeowook asks, worried.
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"Umma!" Ryeowook screams, feeling terrified as he is slammed viciously against the wall. "HYUNG!" Leeteuk's eyes look back at him, crazed. "Hyung… please… stop…" Ryeowook chokes out. He is pinned against the wall, Leeteuk's hands wrapped around his slender neck, choking him. It's getting to difficult to breathe, Ryeowook thinks as his vision starts to go black at the edges. He thinks he sees stars twinkling behind his eyes as he struggles to intake another breath. "Help…" Ryeowook gasps weakly. He distantly hears the door open, distantly hears the horrified gasp.
"What the hell!" Kangin shouts, prying Leeteuk off Ryeowook. Ryeowook sinks to the ground, head spinning. He gasps in desperate breaths, reaching up and touching the bruises forming on his pale neck. He hears everything as though through a fog, and when he opens his eyes, he sees Sungmin, all blurry.
"Ryeowook…" Sungmin lifts trembling fingers to Ryeowook's neck. "Are you okay?"
"Sungmin…" Ryeowook groans, voice hoarse. They are interrupted by Kangin's furious shouting.
"Leeteuk! What the hell is wrong with you?!" Kangin demands. Leeteuk's crazed eyes start to regain some sense of normalcy, awareness returning back to his brown eyes. Terror takes over as Kangin shakes him fiercely by the shoulders.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Leeteuk sobs.
"Why…? Why were you trying to hurt Ryeowook?" Sungmin asks timidly. Leeteuk shakes, visibly trembling like a leaf.
"LEETEUK!" Kangin bellows.
"I don't know! I don't know! I'm so sorry, Wookie!" Leeteuk cries, trying to reach out for Ryeowook, who lets out a shriek, scrambling away from Leeteuk. Leeteuk feels his heart break, both for the magnae who he has now probably scared to the point of death, and for the pain he will be causing everyone else.
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"Your friend has Dissociative Identity Disorder." The doctor tells them seriously. Kangin and Sungmin exchange looks. This would explain a lot, why Leeteuk's eyes looked so insane when they first found him, why he seemed to remember Ryeowook's attempted murder as though he viewed it through a veil. They thank the doctor, turning and leaving the office.
It's only when their car pulls out of the parking lot that the doctor realizes he has forgotten to tell them that Leeteuk also suffers from depression.
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"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Ryeowook's terrified scream echoes through the house. He has just walked into the washroom, and is frozen in the doorway. Kangin and Sungmin come running, frightened at what they may have to face. What they see is Ryeowook, standing motionless in the doorway, and red. There is red all over the bathroom tiles, a trail of it, and Kangin follows it with his eyes. He follows the trail of red back to its owner… Leeteuk. His wrists hang over the side of the bathtub, blood splattered around him. When Sungmin sees Leeteuk, he screams, collapsing against a wall and hyperventilating. Ryeowook is unresponsive, still standing there with a blank look on his face. Kangin looks tentatively at Leeteuk. He saw Leeteuk's eyes, blank and unseeing, saw his arms, slit from wrist to elbow, saw the twisted smile Leeteuk still had on his face.
A white piece of paper lies next to Leeteuk. Kangin tries to pick it up without looking at Leeteuk. The note is written in red ink… no, wait. That's blood, Kangin realizes, and he shudders violently.
I'm sorry that I couldn't take care of you. I realized that I wasn't stable enough to keep you all safe. And so, you'll all be safer without me here.
Author: tsukixchan
Prompt #028: Choking
Pairing: Leeteuk/Ryeowook
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: eight ninety four
Genre: Angst
Warning: Character death, violence
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A/N: Huh, this really turned out different from how I first wrote it. It ended up at double the length. xD The plot bunny just took over my head. I don't know what happened with this one, it suddenly turned all angsty on me. :( Also, please forgive any mistakes I made with conditions in this story, I didn't really have the time to develop the disorder more.
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Everyone knows that Leeteuk is the umma of Super Junior. In all honesty, Leeteuk knows it too. And he loves it. He loves his family and he loves taking care of them. But sometimes, he wishes that someone else would just take over.
--
Ryeowook is the baby of the family, the eternal magnae. With his short stature and feminine features, everything about him just screams adorable. It's not just the umma who babies Wookie. Everyone else does too, for who can resist the eternal magnae?
--
Leeteuk is smiling, as always. He's in the kitchen again, trying to take on the responsibility for all 13 members, even though he really can't cook. The duty just falls to him as the umma to attempt to cook food.
"Umma?" Ryeowook's high voice calls.
"Yes, Wookie?" Leeteuk pokes his head out of the kitchen.
"Umma, do you want me to help cook?" Ryeowook offers. Leeteuk looks positively delighted.
"Thank you, Wook ah!" Leeteuk says gratefully. The relief on his face must be clearly visible, because Ryeowook smiles slightly, telling Leeteuk to go and rest. Ryeowook is one of the few people who can actually cook in Super Junior, and Leeteuk appreciates the help. Ryeowook is just like that, so helpful and happy.
--
Leeteuk worries. He worries about everyone except for himself. He always wants to make sure that the members are eating well, sleeping enough, and aren't too stressed out. However, his great efforts to protect the members only drag him deeper into the pit. He himself cannot handle the work needed to take care of 12 other members, but he ignores this, continuing to work.
--
"I'm worried about umma," Ryeowook says to Kangin one day, "he's working way too hard."
"Yes," Kangin agrees, "and he's been much quieter lately."
"Do you think he'll be okay?" Ryeowook asks, worried.
--
"Umma!" Ryeowook screams, feeling terrified as he is slammed viciously against the wall. "HYUNG!" Leeteuk's eyes look back at him, crazed. "Hyung… please… stop…" Ryeowook chokes out. He is pinned against the wall, Leeteuk's hands wrapped around his slender neck, choking him. It's getting to difficult to breathe, Ryeowook thinks as his vision starts to go black at the edges. He thinks he sees stars twinkling behind his eyes as he struggles to intake another breath. "Help…" Ryeowook gasps weakly. He distantly hears the door open, distantly hears the horrified gasp.
"What the hell!" Kangin shouts, prying Leeteuk off Ryeowook. Ryeowook sinks to the ground, head spinning. He gasps in desperate breaths, reaching up and touching the bruises forming on his pale neck. He hears everything as though through a fog, and when he opens his eyes, he sees Sungmin, all blurry.
"Ryeowook…" Sungmin lifts trembling fingers to Ryeowook's neck. "Are you okay?"
"Sungmin…" Ryeowook groans, voice hoarse. They are interrupted by Kangin's furious shouting.
"Leeteuk! What the hell is wrong with you?!" Kangin demands. Leeteuk's crazed eyes start to regain some sense of normalcy, awareness returning back to his brown eyes. Terror takes over as Kangin shakes him fiercely by the shoulders.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Leeteuk sobs.
"Why…? Why were you trying to hurt Ryeowook?" Sungmin asks timidly. Leeteuk shakes, visibly trembling like a leaf.
"LEETEUK!" Kangin bellows.
"I don't know! I don't know! I'm so sorry, Wookie!" Leeteuk cries, trying to reach out for Ryeowook, who lets out a shriek, scrambling away from Leeteuk. Leeteuk feels his heart break, both for the magnae who he has now probably scared to the point of death, and for the pain he will be causing everyone else.
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"Your friend has Dissociative Identity Disorder." The doctor tells them seriously. Kangin and Sungmin exchange looks. This would explain a lot, why Leeteuk's eyes looked so insane when they first found him, why he seemed to remember Ryeowook's attempted murder as though he viewed it through a veil. They thank the doctor, turning and leaving the office.
It's only when their car pulls out of the parking lot that the doctor realizes he has forgotten to tell them that Leeteuk also suffers from depression.
--
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Ryeowook's terrified scream echoes through the house. He has just walked into the washroom, and is frozen in the doorway. Kangin and Sungmin come running, frightened at what they may have to face. What they see is Ryeowook, standing motionless in the doorway, and red. There is red all over the bathroom tiles, a trail of it, and Kangin follows it with his eyes. He follows the trail of red back to its owner… Leeteuk. His wrists hang over the side of the bathtub, blood splattered around him. When Sungmin sees Leeteuk, he screams, collapsing against a wall and hyperventilating. Ryeowook is unresponsive, still standing there with a blank look on his face. Kangin looks tentatively at Leeteuk. He saw Leeteuk's eyes, blank and unseeing, saw his arms, slit from wrist to elbow, saw the twisted smile Leeteuk still had on his face.
A white piece of paper lies next to Leeteuk. Kangin tries to pick it up without looking at Leeteuk. The note is written in red ink… no, wait. That's blood, Kangin realizes, and he shudders violently.
I'm sorry that I couldn't take care of you. I realized that I wasn't stable enough to keep you all safe. And so, you'll all be safer without me here.