lately i've felt insecure as shit. instead of admitting to it or dealing with it (and stopping eating junk food to medicate it) i pick fights with my boyfriend. i feel worthless.
I haven't been able to sleep more than five hours, & if I'm able to it's restlessly because for some reason I can't force myself to have a sound sleep. I feel like the only people I've ever really been friends with in my life aren't calling me; that if I didn't initiate plans I'd probably sit at home alone for the rest of my life. I make up for my insecurities with friends by not eating because somehow I feel that my looks have something to do with it. I actually feel as though if I feel off the face of the Earth tomorrow, people would only feel bad because as compassionate humans they're supposed to.
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I haven't been able to sleep more than five hours, & if I'm able to it's restlessly because for some reason I can't force myself to have a sound sleep. I feel like the only people I've ever really been friends with in my life aren't calling me; that if I didn't initiate plans I'd probably sit at home alone for the rest of my life. I make up for my insecurities with friends by not eating because somehow I feel that my looks have something to do with it. I actually feel as though if I feel off the face of the Earth tomorrow, people would only feel bad because as compassionate humans they're supposed to.
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