Up shit creek with a turd for a paddle.

[tug42]

In the early morning moments after her storming out of my apartment screaming one last,"YOU ARE FUCKING CRAZY!" I laid tranquil and silent enjoying the catharsis only a fit of blind, drunken rage can deliver. I was stretched out on my stomach surveying the damage. 1 classical guitar smashed against a bookshelf. 1 8x10 picture frame which used to

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[phooty72]

dan, what the hell is going on here?!?!?! i think i need to start peeking my head in every once in a while. i hope i'll get to see you this weekend. and kori too. i miss you kids. please be careful.

[tug42]

Relax its just your normal every day disfunctional relationship. Its over now. Perhaps this weekend with the junior we can catch up properly.

Every one should smash at least one guitar in thier life

[50north50south]

You have a gift, Dan. Like Tom Waits or Charles Bukowski, your words take an addicts tragedy and make it sound romantic, bittersweet, and I hate to say this, but a damn entertaining read. You really are a talented writer, and I would be thrilled to see you turn your ability toward something more positive than a chronicle of your percieved failures.

There is a strong, intelligent, creative person inside you, Dan, don't forget that. I wish I could tell you that you will conquer all your problems soon, but I can't. No one ever really slays their dragon, but you can take control of it, whip it's ass a couple times, and tell it to make you a sandwich. And you only really lose if you stop trying.

Hang in there, buddy.

Love,

Mateo

Re: Every one should smash at least one guitar in thier life

[tug42]

well it was actually my third smashed guitar but they were all cheap guitars. The first one was for fun, the second was because the rents had bought amanda a more expensive guitar and this was the third. Probably worth $75 combined. I appreciate your encouragement but honestly I am fine. I write it here for all to see so that I can't hide from it. I can't go back to AZ and pretend I am honky dory. Its like in the movie Say Anything when John Cusack's love interest is talking to her Dad and she says "It feels good to tell you the truth, because if I can't tell you it is almost like it didn't happen." She was talking about bonin' down with Cusack but it applies here too. If you, my friends, don't know when I fuck up or slip, it is like it never happened. I swear I am fine. I am taking the appropriate "steps" to change my habits and positively change my behavior.

[bigfatdynamo]

<3

[tug42]

<3 and xxxoooxxx