i wish that just one more time, i could see ur smile again. i wish that just one more time i could hear u laugh and just be with u. be surrounded surrounded for by u. just one more hug, and a glimpse of ur eye, just one last time, would mean the world to me. to be within your understanding again, to remember the feeling of being unsderstood, ( Read more... )

today, was just today, thats all that there is. i woke up, hardly, and went to school. came home, watched a movie, and went to bed. i was woken up several times by either ppl or the fone. damn it. the only pleasent wake up that there was was when the UPS guys came and brought me my packagethat i have been waiting for for over a week and a hlaf, it ( Read more... )

last night was not a pretty night ( Read more... )

God i pray that u send me some guidance or something. my mom has seriously gone insane, and shes realy messed up. really, im sick of her and he things that go on around here. i need a better life. i need something that i can live on. today i walked in the house and there was a battle that was like world war 9. my mom was messed up out of her mind, ( Read more... )

WHOOPS!!! i fogot to add an entry when i was back in claifornia(great time to do so right?) lol, well, u can add this part in with the last wee that i was in california....the date was...h/o i have to got check....( im back) December 17th, it was a wednsday.i was really sick, nad i had no voice, this ties in w/ when i had the fever and everything ( Read more... )

wow i havent been on this thing in a long while. i guessthat i didnt feel a point in doing it ever since kyle was gone. i guess that ill start up again. hmm...where to start.. wel ill start with telling ya htat ny hasnt been so great since when i first got here.. i cant stand it anymore. i wanna go HOME!!! yes now i call cali my home because it ( Read more... )

ive been trying to get in touch with my friend kyle for the longest time... u might know her,she has long blonde hair brighter than the sun! lol. i havent talked to her in months and im worried about her...if anyone sees ro hears form her...PLEASE TELL HER TO CALL ASHLEY IN NY!!!!!

i woke up this morning wiht a heavieness within me. i hadnt woken up to the ringing of the phone, that would be samantha caling me, to say hello and good morning. i woke up to silence. until the rain started to pour out of the sky. nature imitating how i am feeling. i feel lost. i have been betrayed by my own self and by the writings of others. i ( Read more... )

This shit isnt right you wanna be in our "group" that you can never be in and it doesnt mean we disslike you more its jsut different, you gotta understand that casue its not gonna change ( Read more... )

what an eventful day. i got written up for going to t1 3 times. wow. mrs.spielamn found out and she tore me a new ass whole. u knwo what i dont care. she really needs to stop. wow its taking me like 5 million years to write one fucking sentence becasue i had to take a muscle relaxer cause i killed the muscle in my shoulder. Getting Very Sleepy. ( Read more... )