I am an alpha female. I can't help but be an alpha female. I don't do well with girls who are weaker than me, because I think the alpha role is to dominate. I don't fit in anywhere.

I'm tired of being so morose ( Read more... )

I never live up to anyones expectations of me.
I think I do it on purpose.

monotonous

it's safe to say after 4 years on&off-ness, crying, fighting, loving, hating, etc etc.. I am actually TRULY and officially OVER IT.

no longer will thoughts of him and some broad of the week, month, whatever, twist and turn my stomach into knots or leave me feeling insignificant to the point of exhaustion.

things can only move forward from here.

headaches are still coming and going

Click to view

I'm getting used to these daily migranes.

I've got an army and an opposing team but I guess none of that matters. It's one on one. Or it should be. But now we're both buried, under something or another.

These fucking induced epiphanies are killing me.

I haven't been happy since the night I told you to let it be. I was sitting on the back porch in the dirt and grime completely wide-eyed and raw. When your mind is in such a state of vulnerability, and someone causes tears, you're changed. I'm still content, but I'm not me. I don't know what happened, but I don't smile. I don't interact. I'm lost ( Read more... )