it is hard to believe,
that i can never believe.

i have trust issues.

-becca and i hung out last week while she was here. i love her so.
-i hate looking for jobs. simply bc of the heat. it is impossible to look presentable.

i had what some people call a boyfriend.
but he made me feel like poop on the 4th of july.
he apologized and i forgave him.
but i have not seen him since and things are weird.

i have been hanging out with alex more
and that makes me really really happy.

i still dont have a job.
but i have a few prospects.

i love dana a lot!!

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tonight i remembered why i stopped going to shows ( Read more... )

in reference to my last entry.
i am now like everyone else.
i lost my job.

the only human interaction i get from people at work is someone yelling at me. i just need to last one more month and then they can fire me and i can get unemployment until i find another job. there are so many jobs available left and right, so you would think that it would be easy to get another one. no way! there are 5 times as many people ( Read more... )

i am so much more happy
when i have a 3 1/2 day weekend.

friday.
rain.
lounge.
herb.
company.

saturday.
show.
wine.
sidewalks.
acid.
butt.

sunday.
myrtle beach.
ale.
central park.
motherfucker.

monday.herb ( Read more... )

to most of my "friends" in this city.
you have greatly damaged my heart.
i want out and i am stuck.

i really am miserable.
someone save me.

why is something always trying to bring me further and further down?