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A small taste of freedom...Meditation that seemed to be failure had a very real effect noted by both myself and the waiter serving me. Can there be change and process with absolutely no awareness of it all? I had thought I was sleeping, and yet...
Truly, I know nothing at all. And the moon is bright, even when obscured by clouds.
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Learning Still More
I've been very, very quiet on here these past few months. Quiet in general, really. I've had to create a lot of space to just BE, which used to be quite tricky in this busy world of ours. The post prior to this has been in the back of my mind like an iron ingot despite my musings and I know I've needed to say...SOMETHING...For quite some time. But ( Read more... ) -
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Pretty much the most horrific thing I've ever seen ~ one human being can suffer this much?..What is all of this FOR? -
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Sitting beside her bed, listening to her just try and be. Every breath Mom takes sounds like a movie-quality last breath. She's continually groaning, coughing and moaning. Words cannot express. -
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Advanced?...Learned?...Wisdom?...What is that? What is that, that has grown or GAINED something? To say you've gained wisdom is to say you've gained Self, to say you're holding ever more shifting smoke. Nothing whatsoever is to be cling to, as "I," or "my," so says Carol Wilson, and she's right. This especially includes "spiritual attainment." -
Validation
Stop looking for other people to validate you. Why do you try and accord yourself to the shifting whims of other people? They barely know themselves, let alone you ~ let alone the limitations of language and the spoken word ~ let alone the veil of perceptions and opinions that keep us from seeing the is-ness of another person, no matter how close. ( Read more... ) -
Book ideas: the Ending, perhaps..
I've tread a circle nearly _______ miles long. Only now am I ready to meditate...Really? Such a fool ~ a truly wise person would have started years ago. But I had to know..I had to try my very hardest to be a peacock when my nature is that of a snail, gently plodding along, sampling this and that along the way and retreating every now and again ( Read more... ) -
Touchdown in Alaska -- Let the Adventure Begin!
I've made it to Alaska! Just arrived in Juneau -- and entirely unsure of the proper pronunciation! But for now I'm just content to look out of the window and take in the gorgeous scenery! Flying in, I was mesmerized by the view outside...Wrinkled, snowcapped peaks with belts of blue leading towards the nearby Pacific and fluffy white clouds ( Read more... ) -
An Amusing Recollection..
So after my job interview in New York City, I met my friend Amir, whom I met via OKCupid. That makes the very first time I've made a connection IN PERSON through online dating, which is both exciting AND depressing considering how damn long I've been at it. Either way, after some dinner and drinks, we went to a bar near his place whose name escapes ( Read more... ) -
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I've been feeling somewhat apathetic lately...Which is strange, because I have an adventure on the horizon. I'm going up to Alaska, of all places, to work for a seafood packing company for the summer. Make a wad of cash, see a new spot on the map. I should be thrilled, and I am...Sometimes. And afterwards, I'm planning on heading down to Mexico - I ( Read more... )