My day was SO great because mary came to my rescue and saw me.. bringing me cake and CIGARETTES! haha... mary, i love you so much. thanx for making me feel special. it'll kick ass if i get that job, too!

my dad told me he cared. thats all that matters. the day was shit but that put a smile on my face... knowing that you're not so insignificant.

i want to work in an old bookstore, or an art gallery... fuck corporate companies. they can all go to hell.

im sick of going to church with my hypocritical family. i just stopped going. its all a scam. its all a cult. mary, where are you? we need to leave this place.
this lifes a game. why did i ever try? we all lose in the end. we all die. why cant everyone stop worrying about the stupid shit thats not important.

ive got nothing to rely on
i've broken every bone
everybody's stopped believing

so it's said
all our life is dead
so it seems
all our life is dreams
a poem in the head
of a poet that's dead

my moms stupid ex-boyfriend is coming today from california.. staying in MY house. he ruined my fucking childhood. i nevr saw my mom and dad together, just that prick, and he finally got out of my life and now he's back.
get
me
out
of
here

wut a fun night. hung out on mill and then went to a halloween party. i was feeling kinda sick after i drank the bacardi but it was still fun. when i came home, i smelled like weed and my breathed reeked of alcohol but my mom didnt seem to notice... "falling down the stairs, i wish it didn't hurt.. but in the corner of my eye i see you cry, black ( Read more... )

life is so good. i never thought id say that but these past few days have been amazing. last night i snuck out with mary and went over to mikes house... got super blazed and drunk... and when i came home no one found out! i think thats the first time i havent been caught. im so happy i saw mary yesterday. FINALLY! mary, i love you so much, you ( Read more... )

my first entry! i gotta figure out how to use this thing... it might take a while