Comments | tutorhelper: A+ to Michigan

tutorhelper

A+ to Michigan

Feb 10, 2005 20:58

I've just read my daughters' LJs. My heart is ripped. One of them is practically grown up and the other is damn near there. I know that part of the reason for that is my absence. I haven't been there as for them as much as I should have been. I'm not there for them now. I wish I was. 2570 miles is a damn long distance. Doesn't help that it's gray ( Read more... )

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supergirl69187 February 13 2005, 07:06:54 UTC

i kinda feel bad now Dad.... I mean, if you like your job that much then don't move... i understand you want to be out here near manda and i, but i don't think you should sacrifice your own happiness for ours....i dunno...nevermind...

teachspet February 14 2005, 01:37:14 UTC

Sam, your happiness is your dad's happiness. Hopefully he can find a job in CA that pays well and lets him travel too. that would be perfect. He misses you so much. Seems we all have lives that are sort of set and yet there is something missing for all of us. im used to moving. I havent stayed in one place more than 4 years in a longggggggggggg time. ok.... since i graduated high school and i have never lived somewhere warm. im rooting for CA. i know i would love to get to spend more time getting to know you guys. besides i loveeeeeeeee watching your dad's face light up when he talks about home.
hugs

tutorhelper February 15 2005, 00:59:42 UTC

Yes, I like my job that much, but I love you two so much more than words can express. I truly wish I could make up for lost time, make up for lost sharing. I know I can't. I can only be grateful that the connection has been reestablished. What's more important is that I want that connection to continue and I want it closer. That means I have to be near my girls. That means I have to find a job in California. Done deal. A job is a job. Assuming I can find something close to right for me, I'll be there in less than a month. (Ok, maybe more depending on my current schedule.) :)

DON'T YOU EVER FEEL BAD FOR EXPRESSING YOURSELF. I need to know these things. I've missed out on way too much. Don't shut down on me now!!

The only thing I can't do is move without a job. Hopefully, that will resolve soon.