there is a strange beauty in this all ( Read more... )

Breakfast at 8.. what a liar i am - of course i wouldn't feel better and i know it. i'm so good at shifting my attention to something else, to look at numbers, or the figures on the carpet or the ceiling or the wallpaper, and just cease to see/remember/know about the real problem. i'm such a good liar ( Read more... )

The cat Halla came out from under the closet late last night, now he is sitting on the wood fire place, there's a nice warm spot there that Veera never uses, so it's his place now. They both ate this morning, and Veera has been outside, but Halla just sits there. He hasn't used the litterbox during the whole time.. it must feel like a long journey ( Read more... )

it seems all my friends are falling apart the same week ( Read more... )

Still trying
to reach inwards to find a connection in this body, this breath, this woman who is me - WHY?

tired
tired tired
pissed off with this whole thing, wossit called, life.

Been away up north, Lapland ( Read more... )

Cold and rain ( Read more... )

Hip joints ( Read more... )

it's the piggy ( Read more... )

The performances on saturday went really well. It's hard to believe, seeing the results, that everything that could go wrong really did. Our stage manager who had known about the event since 2002, had left everything till the last week, and he (said he) was sick for the whole of the week, so he had done NOTHING!!! He must have been really sick, not ( Read more... )