Wake up.
I want to find out what makes ordinary people get up every day.
I seem to have misplaced my reason.
~
Ate Beth: Lot, hapon na. Wala kang class?
Me: Why? (Goes back to sleep.)
~
1. Are you a dog person or a cat person?
~ Either. Prefer dogs, though.
2. Are you a giver or a taker?
~ To genuinely give, one must not expect anything in return. I'm a selfish biatch.
3. Are you a mama's boy/daddy's girl/etc?
~ I'm a rebel with a cause.
4. Are you better with numbers or words?
~ None of the above.
5. Are you named after anyone?
~ Saints.
6. Can you speak/read/write any other languages?
~ Spanish, bisaya. Wehh...
7. Did you play with barbies when you were little?
~ Yep.
8. Do you believe in dream symbolism?
~ Sometimes.
9. Do you believe in ghosts?
~ Maybe.
10. Do you believe in the afterlife?
~ Don't you think we have too much to handle in this life alone?
11. Do you care what other people think of you?
~ Yes. Fuck yes. I'm in denial.
12. Do you consider yourself a party animal, homebody, or other? Explain.
~ Homebody, unless with the right company. *wink*
13. Do you cook? If so, what's your best meal?
~ Give me the friggin' recipe.
14. Who is your favorite celebrity??
~ Madami.
15. Do you dream of travelling the world or are you happy where you are?
~ I'd love to travel. I live for change.
16. How well do most people know you?
~ Enough to avoid me, I guess. Nyahaha.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
~ Lotski, Malot, Malou, Nadine, etc.
18. Do you have any siblings?
~ Yeh maybe.
19. Do you have any tattoos?
~ Yes. Isa palang.
20. Do you have clothes hanging in your closet that still have the tags on them?
~ 1 dress and 2 shirts.
21. Do you let dogs lick your face?
~ Yes.
22. Do you love your computer?
~ Love? No. I wouldn't die for it.
23. Do you still live with your parents?
~ Sort-of.
24. Do you think people should have the right to commit suicide?
~ To commit suicide or not is the ultimate test of your free will.
25. How often do you drink alcoholic beverages?
~ At least twice a week.
26. If there was a movie made about your life, what would the title be?
~ I don't know. Nahihirapan na nga akong mag-isip ng title/subject ng mga blogs eh.
27. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
~ Me, only better.
28. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
~ Stop schooling. Make music/art or write forever. Yey.
29. If you had been born of the opposite gender, what would you want your name to be?
~ Jakob Liam. Rockstar na rockstar.
30. What is something you should probably get rid of?
~ Regrets, my misdirected obsessive-compulsiveness.
31. What is the greatest amount of money you have ever held in your hand at one time?
~ P100,000. Pinadeposit.
32. What is your favorite fairy tale?
~ Alice in Wonderland. Hehe. That included? Or you mean the Grimm brothers' shit?
33. What reality show would you go on?
~ Amazing Race. For the sake of leaving this shithole for a while.
~
I would sincerely like to thank the Ateneo de Manila University for making me feel less than mediocre.
Sad but true.
And I had to learn it the hard way.
[Di ka pa nasanay, Lot?]
~
You'll rescue me, right?
In the exact same way they never did.
I'll be happy, right?
When your healing powers kick in.
You'll complete me, right?
Then my life can finally begin.
I'll be worthy, right?
Only when you realize the gem I am.
But this won't work now the way it once did,
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to.
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am,
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim. [Amen!]
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless,
And parting with them is like
Parting with invisible best friends...
But this won't work as well as the way it once did,
Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss. [Finally?]
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim...
[Eto na...]I've spent so long firmly looking outside me.
I've spent so much time living in survival mode. [Bow.]
I seem to have misplaced my reason.
~
Ate Beth: Lot, hapon na. Wala kang class?
Me: Why? (Goes back to sleep.)
~
1. Are you a dog person or a cat person?
~ Either. Prefer dogs, though.
2. Are you a giver or a taker?
~ To genuinely give, one must not expect anything in return. I'm a selfish biatch.
3. Are you a mama's boy/daddy's girl/etc?
~ I'm a rebel with a cause.
4. Are you better with numbers or words?
~ None of the above.
5. Are you named after anyone?
~ Saints.
6. Can you speak/read/write any other languages?
~ Spanish, bisaya. Wehh...
7. Did you play with barbies when you were little?
~ Yep.
8. Do you believe in dream symbolism?
~ Sometimes.
9. Do you believe in ghosts?
~ Maybe.
10. Do you believe in the afterlife?
~ Don't you think we have too much to handle in this life alone?
11. Do you care what other people think of you?
~ Yes. Fuck yes. I'm in denial.
12. Do you consider yourself a party animal, homebody, or other? Explain.
~ Homebody, unless with the right company. *wink*
13. Do you cook? If so, what's your best meal?
~ Give me the friggin' recipe.
14. Who is your favorite celebrity??
~ Madami.
15. Do you dream of travelling the world or are you happy where you are?
~ I'd love to travel. I live for change.
16. How well do most people know you?
~ Enough to avoid me, I guess. Nyahaha.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
~ Lotski, Malot, Malou, Nadine, etc.
18. Do you have any siblings?
~ Yeh maybe.
19. Do you have any tattoos?
~ Yes. Isa palang.
20. Do you have clothes hanging in your closet that still have the tags on them?
~ 1 dress and 2 shirts.
21. Do you let dogs lick your face?
~ Yes.
22. Do you love your computer?
~ Love? No. I wouldn't die for it.
23. Do you still live with your parents?
~ Sort-of.
24. Do you think people should have the right to commit suicide?
~ To commit suicide or not is the ultimate test of your free will.
25. How often do you drink alcoholic beverages?
~ At least twice a week.
26. If there was a movie made about your life, what would the title be?
~ I don't know. Nahihirapan na nga akong mag-isip ng title/subject ng mga blogs eh.
27. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
~ Me, only better.
28. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
~ Stop schooling. Make music/art or write forever. Yey.
29. If you had been born of the opposite gender, what would you want your name to be?
~ Jakob Liam. Rockstar na rockstar.
30. What is something you should probably get rid of?
~ Regrets, my misdirected obsessive-compulsiveness.
31. What is the greatest amount of money you have ever held in your hand at one time?
~ P100,000. Pinadeposit.
32. What is your favorite fairy tale?
~ Alice in Wonderland. Hehe. That included? Or you mean the Grimm brothers' shit?
33. What reality show would you go on?
~ Amazing Race. For the sake of leaving this shithole for a while.
~
I would sincerely like to thank the Ateneo de Manila University for making me feel less than mediocre.
Sad but true.
And I had to learn it the hard way.
[Di ka pa nasanay, Lot?]
~
You'll rescue me, right?
In the exact same way they never did.
I'll be happy, right?
When your healing powers kick in.
You'll complete me, right?
Then my life can finally begin.
I'll be worthy, right?
Only when you realize the gem I am.
But this won't work now the way it once did,
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to.
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am,
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim. [Amen!]
These precious illusions in my head
Did not let me down when I was defenseless,
And parting with them is like
Parting with invisible best friends...
But this won't work as well as the way it once did,
Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss. [Finally?]
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim...
[Eto na...]I've spent so long firmly looking outside me.
I've spent so much time living in survival mode. [Bow.]