[FANFIC] Flood of Love
Title: Flood of Love
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong,
Rating: PG13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Chaptered
Summary: Jaejoong is facing the most difficult period of his life. How will he face it? How will he survive....will he survive?
I can’t tell him. How can I watch his face crumple with despair? No. I will deal with it on my own then if the need arises I will come clean.
Life trundles on as usual - well, as usual for the others. For me it was a waiting game, a game of lies, cover ups and subterfuge. My visit to the doctor was hidden behind a visit to an old friend and the subsequent hospital appointment hidden behind a shopping trip in order to look for something for his upcoming birthday.
As I shopped in the jewellers on the way home the doctor’s words echoed in my ear……
“Tumour….maybe inoperable……..treatment to reduce its size……test results in ten days…..”
I had to wait ten days to find out the results of the scan and to discover whether the drugs had started to reduce the size of the tumour nestled comfortably in my brain. I had passed off the sickness and nausea as a stomach problem. His begging me to visit the doctor struck me as ironic - if only he knew.
The day of my follow up appointment arrived and I lied again, saying I was going to have my stomach examined. I rebuffed his attempt to accompany me, saying I was picking up his birthday present.
As I picked up and paid for the white gold and diamond eternity ring for him I laughed out loud at the irony of the situation. There wasn’t likely to be an eternity for us - not in this world. The doctor’s words were still ringing in my ears.
“Chemotherapy is probably an option. If we can shrink the tumour to the appropriate size we can remove it. There is a high risk of not surviving the operation. If we do not remove the tumour you will not survive. If you have the operation, and remember this may not be an option, we will not know if it is a successful procedure until we scan your brain again” The doctor looked me straight in the eye. “You wanted me to be blunt Mr. Kim so I will be honest and say at this time I only give you a 20% chance of surviving this cancer.” The doctor looked down at his hands as I sat there stony faced, my mind trying to calculate what to do.
“Mr Kim I have made you an appointment to see the oncology specialist who will arrange treatment for you. Talk it through with him and then decide whether you want aggressive treatment or palliative care.”
The jeweller gave me a strange look as he handed me my purchase.
“Sorry, I just thought of something funny.” the tears in my eyes were not tears of laughter and I hastily wiped them away as I walked out of the shop.
When do I tell him? Definitely not before his birthday tomorrow. The day after that we have an important deadline to meet for the recording of our new album. When then?
I told him a week later when I lost feeling temporarily in my leg during dance rehearsals. The nausea also got the better of me and as I picked myself up off of the bathroom floor after vomiting in the toilet bowl, I saw him standing behind me. He was nervously turning the eternity ring I had given him where it nestled next to his couples ring. The look on his face told me that he knew there was something more serious going on than mere stomach problems. I rinsed my mouth out in the sink, our eyes eventually meeting in the mirror above it.
“Joongie?” He sounded desperate and I could feel my heart breaking.
“Yunho, sweetheart. I need to tell you something.” I found it difficult to look at him
“What is it?” He put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me close.
“Not here. Let’s go home. Tell the others to stay Yunho. We need to be alone.” I saw him gulp and the look in his eyes haunted me.
“Come on love of my life. Let’s go.” My attempt to lighten the atmosphere was wasted as I could tell he wasn’t fooled.
A/N: all of my stories are based on experiences I have had. This one is for my darling best friend who died three years ago. He was so young, it’s just not fair.
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong,
Rating: PG13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Chaptered
Summary: Jaejoong is facing the most difficult period of his life. How will he face it? How will he survive....will he survive?
I can’t tell him. How can I watch his face crumple with despair? No. I will deal with it on my own then if the need arises I will come clean.
Life trundles on as usual - well, as usual for the others. For me it was a waiting game, a game of lies, cover ups and subterfuge. My visit to the doctor was hidden behind a visit to an old friend and the subsequent hospital appointment hidden behind a shopping trip in order to look for something for his upcoming birthday.
As I shopped in the jewellers on the way home the doctor’s words echoed in my ear……
“Tumour….maybe inoperable……..treatment to reduce its size……test results in ten days…..”
I had to wait ten days to find out the results of the scan and to discover whether the drugs had started to reduce the size of the tumour nestled comfortably in my brain. I had passed off the sickness and nausea as a stomach problem. His begging me to visit the doctor struck me as ironic - if only he knew.
The day of my follow up appointment arrived and I lied again, saying I was going to have my stomach examined. I rebuffed his attempt to accompany me, saying I was picking up his birthday present.
As I picked up and paid for the white gold and diamond eternity ring for him I laughed out loud at the irony of the situation. There wasn’t likely to be an eternity for us - not in this world. The doctor’s words were still ringing in my ears.
“Chemotherapy is probably an option. If we can shrink the tumour to the appropriate size we can remove it. There is a high risk of not surviving the operation. If we do not remove the tumour you will not survive. If you have the operation, and remember this may not be an option, we will not know if it is a successful procedure until we scan your brain again” The doctor looked me straight in the eye. “You wanted me to be blunt Mr. Kim so I will be honest and say at this time I only give you a 20% chance of surviving this cancer.” The doctor looked down at his hands as I sat there stony faced, my mind trying to calculate what to do.
“Mr Kim I have made you an appointment to see the oncology specialist who will arrange treatment for you. Talk it through with him and then decide whether you want aggressive treatment or palliative care.”
The jeweller gave me a strange look as he handed me my purchase.
“Sorry, I just thought of something funny.” the tears in my eyes were not tears of laughter and I hastily wiped them away as I walked out of the shop.
When do I tell him? Definitely not before his birthday tomorrow. The day after that we have an important deadline to meet for the recording of our new album. When then?
I told him a week later when I lost feeling temporarily in my leg during dance rehearsals. The nausea also got the better of me and as I picked myself up off of the bathroom floor after vomiting in the toilet bowl, I saw him standing behind me. He was nervously turning the eternity ring I had given him where it nestled next to his couples ring. The look on his face told me that he knew there was something more serious going on than mere stomach problems. I rinsed my mouth out in the sink, our eyes eventually meeting in the mirror above it.
“Joongie?” He sounded desperate and I could feel my heart breaking.
“Yunho, sweetheart. I need to tell you something.” I found it difficult to look at him
“What is it?” He put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me close.
“Not here. Let’s go home. Tell the others to stay Yunho. We need to be alone.” I saw him gulp and the look in his eyes haunted me.
“Come on love of my life. Let’s go.” My attempt to lighten the atmosphere was wasted as I could tell he wasn’t fooled.
A/N: all of my stories are based on experiences I have had. This one is for my darling best friend who died three years ago. He was so young, it’s just not fair.