gah. such a friggen idiot. I shouldn't tell people my feelings, like, ever. at least not till i'm 20. maybe they'll stop friggen switching and confusing the hell out of me, eh?

it so weird to feel the way I feel about jason now.
I was convinced that I wouldn't be able to be friends with him
that it would kill me
that i'd feel like I did forever

but now. I can look at the houses jason looked at in boulder
and not feel pain
not feel anything but curiosity
and I can leave his house, and spend the night at home and not feel pain
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we are lost and found
but love is gonna save us

On top of the world you get nothing done
talk is cold and burns like the sun
can’t you see these skies are breaking
cause on top of the world is where I’m from
the back of the class is where I was
keeping quiet, playing dumb
can’t you see these skies are breaking
cause the back of the class is where I’m from
and I am one

I am
I am one

I’m on a race ( Read more... )

oh dear,
this is going to be harder than I thought..

When was the last time you cried? umm. the..day before yesterday I think. I wanted to cry last night, but I couldn't.
Have you ever faked sick? yep. i was fairly good at it
What was the last lie you said? telling jason that I didn't remember which chat rooms i got hit on in. I was too ashamed, actually. plus, you know. it's not easy to tell your ex ( Read more... )

it's over
completely over

i'm not happy
but i'll be okay.
i'm not losing him completely.
but i'll never be with him like that again

I am....not doing so hot.
I miss him.
i'm not afraid to admit it. it's okay.
I love him. I haven't seen him since thursday. when I used to see him every single day
it's normal
it just hurts
and I want to smoke. but I probably shouldn't
i just haven't got an outlet. nothing I can do about this but wait it out
and that's hard
I can do it. 
but I dont want to

if ( Read more... )

i'm getting hit on left and right. it's really rediculous and i'm not enjoying it at all. i'm single, sure. but i'm not interested in dating right now. I want friends. and if i happen to fall for one of the friends I make, well okay. but i'm not just going to jump into anything. that's rediculous. I just got dumped.

so just give me a little time ( Read more... )

You were mother nature's son ,
Someone to whom I could relate ,
Your needle and your damage done,
Remains a sorted twist of fate.
Now I'm trying to wake you up ,
To pull you from the liquid sky ,
Coz if I don't we'll both end up ,
With just your song to say goodbye.
My Oh My.