Sometimes I believe the truth of my dreams. I'm dead in sleep and something happens that my mind perceives as reality. Outlandish dreams have set me up for that. Sleep takes me to a world that is fantastical, bright, and completely extraordinary; so, when I find myself in my grandparent's back yard doing ordinary things like racing my cousin ( Read more... )

If only I could remember to wind this damn watch ( Read more... )

I start every entry the same way. Not knowing how to begin describing this tumult that is going on inside me. It's a knot of thread spinning on the spindle to my sewing machine, but I can't stop it. I just have to catch the loose end so I can thread my machine. It's not as easy as it sounds! It's spinning so fast. Plus, once I start to pull at it, ( Read more... )

I will, I will...It's just that they are things that I know I don't need to look at right this second. Well, except this...I've been waiting for this document from the Student Assistance Corporation who keeps calling to collect $276 that I DO NOT owe them. How can a school rightfully take out a loan that I never signed for? And of course afterward ( Read more... )

Lately I've been crying at night. Before I go to bed I imagine my life with Chris and what I always thought we were building together. I cry at the loss of the project. I cry at the waste of time. And I cry at my fear. Fear that he is going to wake up one day and realize that he didn't choose this life any more than I did ( Read more... )

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I just got back from San Diego...I was there to see what it's like when death comes ( Read more... )

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I suppose I cannot understand why at the bottom of this text box it says, "Autosaved draft at 10:43:39 AM" IF the fact is, when I try to make an n with a tilde and the screen changes, I cannot come back to that draft ( Read more... )